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Thursday, October 16, 2008

Getting used to the life now...

It has been 16 days since i left my job which i have been working for almost 3.5 years.. A little bit bu she de initially but now more or less used to the life i'm enjoying right now.. I get more time to do the things i wanted to do.. like take driving lessons, study for my exams, start my exercise routine.. everyday is busy for me.. must really make full use of the time i have.. haha..

Pic with my colleagues

Yesterday i went back to NYP.. Time really flies.. It's been a few years since i graduated from there.. many things have changed for eg the food stalls, the dress code of students nowadays.. haha.. a lot of memories came to my mind while i was there.. So happening.. Poly is where I spent my most enjoyable sch days.. all the fun & pain..

Outside shopping arcade at NYP

Now grow up liao so many things to worry about.. see the frenz around me 1 by 1 all settled down le.. how envy.. when will be my turn?.. lol..
Yest oso went jogging with a fren then talked abt many things which oso made me reflect on wat has happened in the past.. hahaha.. really must look ahead to wat's going to happen in future n work towards my goal..
So long nv write blog liao but like nth much to write leh.. duno y.. Nth quite significant has happened these few weeks ba.. tmr going back to my ex co to lunch with my colleagues.. missing them.. haha.. k lah.. i stop here.. going back to face my books now.. 50 days to my 1st exam paper! really got to buck up le... Jiayou ba.. haha.. till then..

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Tuesday, September 02, 2008
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Today 2 Sep is the date I dun wished to be reminded of... birthday of tat jerk... but so sian tat happens to be the day my nephew came to this world.. here comes my bro's 2nd child.. so envy got 1 gal 1 boy.. my sis-in-law can close factory already.. lol.. looking forward to meeting my little nephew... =)
so many things has happened recently... everyday like got something... this morning saw a guy whom I often met on bus 86 when going to NYP.. tat reminds me of my poly days.. even till now haven get to know tat guy sia.. haha life then was how carefree & naive.. haha.. now grow up le got more things to worry n consider.. now look back my pics which i took 1 year or more ago really got a shock lor.. i grow old so much suddenly.. i really age a lot lor.. haiz.. leaving my current job in less than 1 month's time.. hopefully when i'm more free can take a good rest so tat will not be like now look so shack & can start afresh to meet the challenges to come in the future.. hahaha..
Just got a creative zen mp4 player from my company yest.. so happy.. can use to record my lecture or watch show on-the-go... was so lucky lor.. if my last day is earlier, then I would not have gotten all tat gifts.. Hehehe...

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Friday, August 29, 2008
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More than half a month has gone since my dearest grandma passed away… everything seems to be back to normal now except for some minor things that we got to take note... I missed her so much… I lost her forever… The moment I think of tat makes me feel miserable… I wasn’t even around by her side when she left... Why is it so tat at many times only when someone’s gone then we will want to cherish tat person… I wished I could turn back time so I can spend more time with her… I’m so unfilial but it’s all too late now… It’s the greatest regret of my life… Tears running down my cheeks as I writing this but nothing can bring her back le…
Message to my “mama” in heaven:
“Mama, sorry tat I have been a very bad granddaughter… Thank you for all the care and concern you have given me during my childhood days… You will always be in my heart and I will always remember all the memories I have with you. I promise I will be a better and happier person. Dun worry abt me ok… I love u… I once pray to god to relieve you of all your pain and suffering, may you be happy & at ease in another world…”
Although everything is still the same, life has to go on but I know I will not be the same anymore… Seen the true colours of some people around me through this incident… change the view of how I see many things oso… It’s all part and parcel of our lives… so unpredictable and helpless… Haiz…
Message to my friends:
Grace, thanks for coming to the wake even when it was inconvenient for you that day. Glad I could still attend your wedding and be ur jie mei next year… Really feel so happy for you.
Hongseng and Hoesoon, thanks for accompanying me during the wake. It feels terrible to keep my emotions to myself and can’t let it out.
To the rest of my friends who come or send me regards or send rep to pass the ‘bai jin’, thank you… I really appreciate tat… =)

Today is the last working day for Aug and still got 1 mth left to go b4 I leave the company which I have been in for the past 3 years & 4 months+… The time I spend here gives me a lot of nice memories… But obviously there are many reasons why I decide to tender la… Haha… Oct onwards then I’ll be free liao… so happy.. A lot of plans in mind.. But most importantly need to focus on my studies & clear 4 papers this coming dec exam session… Too bad I din managed to clear 1 more paper so tat I’ll be able to complete all.. haiz… but expected la.. at least I cleared my audit no need to study again.. =P
Yeah.. The coming 3 months without job would be nice since I have my friends like Leehui, Jamie, Shenyan & Gerald to accompany me during this period… can revise together or go for workout so not so bored… Yest I went for kickboxing & belly dancing session tat causes my whole body aching right now… Tat really proves tat it’s been really long since I last exercise… It’s been like almost half a year or 1 year?! Hahaha… Hmm.. I finally take one step towards getting driving license.. My driving basic theory test is 2 weeks away.. Intend to take driving lessons while I not working oso.. Hmm… But hor next time might not have $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
Going to be jobless liao… although got plan wat kind of career I looking for and the path I hope to go through but really hard to tell wat’s gonna happen in future oso.. I wonder outside working world is it really tat bad anot.. Have been in comfort zone for too long… Haiz… next time where got $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
K la I stop here first… Next time not working le will be more free to go online, write blog etc lor… Hee..

written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 4:34 PM
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Tuesday, July 08, 2008
The refreshed abandoned blog...

Hey ppl, time really flies.. it's been 2 months plus since i last posted.. exams over, new sem with exams results out in 1 month n 1 week... been to genting with my family few weeks back... with my dear for 2 years le... if counting from the time he went after me was like 5 years ago... haha... lol.. last fri went clubbing with leehui @ Powerhouse.. a lot of old ppl but mostly were youngsters there la.. realised really getting old liao.. few months more to 23 years old.. omg.. wat have I achieved?! Haiz... looking back at the times i used to have... there's fun n laughter with a mixture of sadness n pain... hahaha... some words were too late to say sometimes n some things were too late to be done... we shd not be living in the past n regret on any decisions, actions or words said before... saw some comments i made last time now felt it's so childish.. indeed everyone become more mature as days goes by.. many ppl come n go.. although can be so close to me might just suddenly disappeared... i hope tat all whom i loved b4 or ppl whom I came across are happy always... Till then... Below are some pics taken recently just to share...

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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Life...

Everything feels so shitty.. stressed up at work.. exams coming.. he's not there for me again.. wat kind of life is this?! haha... Time flies.. April is coming to an end... Then May.. then my exams.. oh... looking forward to after exams.. will be going genting with my family.. then can oso relax a bit.. oso intend to take basic theory n start taking driving lessons when most of my frenz already got driving license le.. haha.. me n him oso together for almost 2 years.. have not see him for 2 weeks le... miss him so much.. but wat can i say when he wan to concentrate on his exams.. just have to let him study n dun disturb him.. it seems like everytime his exams coming then we got to 'break up' for a short while.. sianz... wat kind of relationship is this?.. too bad i love him so much.. haha.. hopefully this is his last sem n after tat he can spare time for me.. a lot of things have changed n cannot be like last time liao.. haiz.. to all my frenz, take care... Till then...

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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Stressed up...

Hey guys, just an update of my current situation... Actually wanted to take a nap one.. so tired.. but then as usual during lunch time it is so noisy tat i cannot sleep.. due to the noise made by a few ppl in my co who dun lunch out.. haha.. as i am staring at the LCD screen i feel sleepy.. yawning away..
Just as wat my lecturer says: CNY is over, Vday is over, acca results are out.. so wat are u waiting for? lol.. tats quite true.. got to really start studying for my 3 exam papers this sem le.. I hereby declare that I failed one of my acca paper which i took last semester.. omg.. i actually failed.. n broke my own personal record for major exams.. wat a 38 marks.. n through Roy the lecturer who frequently talk crap in class, i got to know tat the passing rate for my sch is a miserable 41% for the paper which i failed.. though it somehow make me feel better, i still failed anyway n i'm probably cursing the lecturer who taught me, thanks to her ya.. hahaha... i felt disappointed sia coz i never tot i will fail it after i stepped out of my exam hall..
Tat is to say tat no matter how much effort u put in or how hard u try, u might not succeed... wat the... same goes to working... although u did wat u think is good for the co, ppl will still try to find fault in u de... i'm not going to care if anyone sees me typing this here.. i'm just going to hack care.. like wat my colleague say: haiyo, don be so sensitive lar... if watever they say is not true, then u shldnt bother... u know some pple are like dat ma... at many times i tell myself tat but still i feel so bothered... living in this world is really a torture sometimes.. I wanna get out of this place soon!! There's really so many things i keep complaining about... Where's my deardear? haiz.. i know he's busy with his studies n work as well tat he dun have much time for me so i have to understand la... hope this tough period will be over soon... Jiayou Jiayou!

Pics i took recently:

My dear niece... =)

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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Blogging Time!

It's one of those days when I lunch in again... 3rd day of work after enjoying 4 days of chinese new year holidays.. This year my luck is better than the previous few years... keke.. it's a pity my bf side's relatives dun gamble de... oh ya... today is 'Ren Ri'... Happy Ren Ri to all!
Haiz.. been quite pissed off at work since the beginning of the year sia.. Exams results going to be out in 5 days?... Seems like someone is always not there for me... =(
Tmr is Valentine's day... Happy VDay to all! But for me, I can't get to meet him... He say he'll be working till late n want to go home n rest... Haiz... He say celebrate on Sat... Hope really as wat he said he had prepared my present & tot of where to go le.. but I guess he say say only la as usual.. I have class on Sat morning so now thinking whether to go or not... Oops... Me myself oso haven get anything for him yet... =P Hope I can get wat i wan today after work... Reminds me tat as time pass I think i like no heart like last time to specially prepare presents on those special days le.. Wat's happening to me wor...
There's so much to complain... Why is it people on the streets walking so slowly & blocking other people's way when we are rushing for time? Aren't the society we now live in is so hectic and fast-moving? Why are so many ppl fond of queueing up? Everytime got to wait & wait... Ha.. But then we really have to put ourselves in their shoes n think for them just like the story I heard on radio on mon night... I'm actually refering to tat someone... He seems to be thinking for himself more than for me most of the time... I'm tired of all these not only him but wat to do leh I love him ma... I can only bear with these n hope things will eventually change for the better... I'm always console myself tat he is much much better than many other guys le.. tat makes me stay on till now... Anyway nothing much has happen wat... Haha...

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