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Monday, August 22, 2005
Depression...
Hai... Hai... Hai... Here I am... Still at work place... Rushing some stuff... think I dun wanna faster finish? Is becoz the stupid system so slow.. then take the time to write blog lor... So stressful... got so many deadlines.. esp these few weeks... this is the 4th day in the month i work till so late le... got $20 pay per day if work till after 9pm... hai... i rather go home sia... who can understand me?! I'm like the only one left to do those testing stuff... CAN someone HELP me??? Living like hell... Start to think tat i'm suffering from some kind of depression...
Yesterday did something that I regretted a lot... scolding my mum bad words... I know this sounds really bad... really feel guilty of wat i've done... Had apologised to my mum... got scolded by both my elder bro and my bf... sobsob... Wat right does HE has to scold me? HE has never really taken care or be concerned about me... HE has never done his duty as an elder bro... HE is only doing his duty as a son... My bf is saying tat he's my bro afterall... but he's not really fit to be one... He just doesn't know his sis... He scold me bad words then can hor... i have always wanted brotherly love from him... but wat do i get... to think tat i still source around for his wedding gift... wat for... i know wat he did was right... he scolded me was right... but before doing tat can he reflect on himself first...
I wan a break from all my troubles!!! Work, bf, friends... I wanna have time for myself!!!
written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 7:30 PM
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