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Friday, May 05, 2006
I'm single now...
Hai... Now then i realise how many days I have been escaping from reality... The fact tat he has left me... The fact tat he choose to give up on our relationship... Coz of a very lame reason... He's such a coward... He doesn't love me enough... Recalling times tat we spend together really made me totally sad and went into insane mental state for the past few days... I fell sick... not just physically but oso mentally... Really feel like getting away from all this nonsense or fall into deep sleep n no need to wake up forever... Very silly isn't it? I'm so sorry to my dear fren Kaiting and her BFTB for bearing with my craziness on Sat night the day before the breakup... Such a disgrace for laughing n crying so loudly in front of other ppl at esplanade after getting drunk... Even wanted to rush out to the road n let the cars just knock over me... Thanks to kaiting for pulling me back n scolding me to wake me up... She cried for me when she see me like tat... Haiz... My frenz were telling me wat for? Dun be too sad... Dun think too much... Maybe he got his reasons to leave u? U deserve a better guy... These are wat I heard from my good frenz... But I could see the sadness n tears in his eyes when i went to look for him at his workplace on Tues... Makes me wonder... Why did he leave me? Why is he so sad too? I duno... He dun wan to say... He dun have anyting to say to me... My feelings right now at this moment is... I can only accept wat he said... I need to move on n live my single life to the fullest... Maybe coz of so much hurt from the past, this time it's easier for me to get over it... But i'm really really hurt... He can just like tat deny all tat we had in the past n the future plans we made... all tat he said before are all lies... I can't trust anyone so easily now... Just let me learn to enjoy my single life ba...
written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 1:30 PM
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