What is lOve??? My feelings for you have been true...

Friday, August 29, 2008

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More than half a month has gone since my dearest grandma passed away… everything seems to be back to normal now except for some minor things that we got to take note... I missed her so much… I lost her forever… The moment I think of tat makes me feel miserable… I wasn’t even around by her side when she left... Why is it so tat at many times only when someone’s gone then we will want to cherish tat person… I wished I could turn back time so I can spend more time with her… I’m so unfilial but it’s all too late now… It’s the greatest regret of my life… Tears running down my cheeks as I writing this but nothing can bring her back le…
Message to my “mama” in heaven:
“Mama, sorry tat I have been a very bad granddaughter… Thank you for all the care and concern you have given me during my childhood days… You will always be in my heart and I will always remember all the memories I have with you. I promise I will be a better and happier person. Dun worry abt me ok… I love u… I once pray to god to relieve you of all your pain and suffering, may you be happy & at ease in another world…”
Although everything is still the same, life has to go on but I know I will not be the same anymore… Seen the true colours of some people around me through this incident… change the view of how I see many things oso… It’s all part and parcel of our lives… so unpredictable and helpless… Haiz…
Message to my friends:
Grace, thanks for coming to the wake even when it was inconvenient for you that day. Glad I could still attend your wedding and be ur jie mei next year… Really feel so happy for you.
Hongseng and Hoesoon, thanks for accompanying me during the wake. It feels terrible to keep my emotions to myself and can’t let it out.
To the rest of my friends who come or send me regards or send rep to pass the ‘bai jin’, thank you… I really appreciate tat… =)

Today is the last working day for Aug and still got 1 mth left to go b4 I leave the company which I have been in for the past 3 years & 4 months+… The time I spend here gives me a lot of nice memories… But obviously there are many reasons why I decide to tender la… Haha… Oct onwards then I’ll be free liao… so happy.. A lot of plans in mind.. But most importantly need to focus on my studies & clear 4 papers this coming dec exam session… Too bad I din managed to clear 1 more paper so tat I’ll be able to complete all.. haiz… but expected la.. at least I cleared my audit no need to study again.. =P
Yeah.. The coming 3 months without job would be nice since I have my friends like Leehui, Jamie, Shenyan & Gerald to accompany me during this period… can revise together or go for workout so not so bored… Yest I went for kickboxing & belly dancing session tat causes my whole body aching right now… Tat really proves tat it’s been really long since I last exercise… It’s been like almost half a year or 1 year?! Hahaha… Hmm.. I finally take one step towards getting driving license.. My driving basic theory test is 2 weeks away.. Intend to take driving lessons while I not working oso.. Hmm… But hor next time might not have $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
Going to be jobless liao… although got plan wat kind of career I looking for and the path I hope to go through but really hard to tell wat’s gonna happen in future oso.. I wonder outside working world is it really tat bad anot.. Have been in comfort zone for too long… Haiz… next time where got $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
K la I stop here first… Next time not working le will be more free to go online, write blog etc lor… Hee..

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