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Getting used to the life now...

2008-10-16T15:29:00.002+08:00

It has been 16 days since i left my job which i have been working for almost 3.5 years.. A little bit bu she de initially but now more or less used to the life i'm enjoying right now.. I get more time to do the things i wanted to do.. like take driving lessons, study for my exams, start my exercise routine.. everyday is busy for me.. must really make full use of the time i have.. haha..

Pic with my colleagues

Yesterday i went back to NYP.. Time really flies.. It's been a few years since i graduated from there.. many things have changed for eg the food stalls, the dress code of students nowadays.. haha.. a lot of memories came to my mind while i was there.. So happening.. Poly is where I spent my most enjoyable sch days.. all the fun & pain..

Outside shopping arcade at NYP

Now grow up liao so many things to worry about.. see the frenz around me 1 by 1 all settled down le.. how envy.. when will be my turn?.. lol..
Yest oso went jogging with a fren then talked abt many things which oso made me reflect on wat has happened in the past.. hahaha.. really must look ahead to wat's going to happen in future n work towards my goal..
So long nv write blog liao but like nth much to write leh.. duno y.. Nth quite significant has happened these few weeks ba.. tmr going back to my ex co to lunch with my colleagues.. missing them.. haha.. k lah.. i stop here.. going back to face my books now.. 50 days to my 1st exam paper! really got to buck up le... Jiayou ba.. haha.. till then..

=O)

2008-09-02T12:26:00.003+08:00

Today 2 Sep is the date I dun wished to be reminded of... birthday of tat jerk... but so sian tat happens to be the day my nephew came to this world.. here comes my bro's 2nd child.. so envy got 1 gal 1 boy.. my sis-in-law can close factory already.. lol.. looking forward to meeting my little nephew... =)
so many things has happened recently... everyday like got something... this morning saw a guy whom I often met on bus 86 when going to NYP.. tat reminds me of my poly days.. even till now haven get to know tat guy sia.. haha life then was how carefree & naive.. haha.. now grow up le got more things to worry n consider.. now look back my pics which i took 1 year or more ago really got a shock lor.. i grow old so much suddenly.. i really age a lot lor.. haiz.. leaving my current job in less than 1 month's time.. hopefully when i'm more free can take a good rest so tat will not be like now look so shack & can start afresh to meet the challenges to come in the future.. hahaha..
Just got a creative zen mp4 player from my company yest.. so happy.. can use to record my lecture or watch show on-the-go... was so lucky lor.. if my last day is earlier, then I would not have gotten all tat gifts.. Hehehe...

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2008-08-29T16:34:00.001+08:00

More than half a month has gone since my dearest grandma passed away… everything seems to be back to normal now except for some minor things that we got to take note... I missed her so much… I lost her forever… The moment I think of tat makes me feel miserable… I wasn’t even around by her side when she left... Why is it so tat at many times only when someone’s gone then we will want to cherish tat person… I wished I could turn back time so I can spend more time with her… I’m so unfilial but it’s all too late now… It’s the greatest regret of my life… Tears running down my cheeks as I writing this but nothing can bring her back le…
Message to my “mama” in heaven:
“Mama, sorry tat I have been a very bad granddaughter… Thank you for all the care and concern you have given me during my childhood days… You will always be in my heart and I will always remember all the memories I have with you. I promise I will be a better and happier person. Dun worry abt me ok… I love u… I once pray to god to relieve you of all your pain and suffering, may you be happy & at ease in another world…”
Although everything is still the same, life has to go on but I know I will not be the same anymore… Seen the true colours of some people around me through this incident… change the view of how I see many things oso… It’s all part and parcel of our lives… so unpredictable and helpless… Haiz…
Message to my friends:
Grace, thanks for coming to the wake even when it was inconvenient for you that day. Glad I could still attend your wedding and be ur jie mei next year… Really feel so happy for you.
Hongseng and Hoesoon, thanks for accompanying me during the wake. It feels terrible to keep my emotions to myself and can’t let it out.
To the rest of my friends who come or send me regards or send rep to pass the ‘bai jin’, thank you… I really appreciate tat… =)

Today is the last working day for Aug and still got 1 mth left to go b4 I leave the company which I have been in for the past 3 years & 4 months+… The time I spend here gives me a lot of nice memories… But obviously there are many reasons why I decide to tender la… Haha… Oct onwards then I’ll be free liao… so happy.. A lot of plans in mind.. But most importantly need to focus on my studies & clear 4 papers this coming dec exam session… Too bad I din managed to clear 1 more paper so tat I’ll be able to complete all.. haiz… but expected la.. at least I cleared my audit no need to study again.. =P
Yeah.. The coming 3 months without job would be nice since I have my friends like Leehui, Jamie, Shenyan & Gerald to accompany me during this period… can revise together or go for workout so not so bored… Yest I went for kickboxing & belly dancing session tat causes my whole body aching right now… Tat really proves tat it’s been really long since I last exercise… It’s been like almost half a year or 1 year?! Hahaha… Hmm.. I finally take one step towards getting driving license.. My driving basic theory test is 2 weeks away.. Intend to take driving lessons while I not working oso.. Hmm… But hor next time might not have $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
Going to be jobless liao… although got plan wat kind of career I looking for and the path I hope to go through but really hard to tell wat’s gonna happen in future oso.. I wonder outside working world is it really tat bad anot.. Have been in comfort zone for too long… Haiz… next time where got $$ to own a car sia esp in Singapore… lol… If no license, still got my bf to be my chauffeur good enough le… Hehe…
K la I stop here first… Next time not working le will be more free to go online, write blog etc lor… Hee..

The refreshed abandoned blog...

2008-07-08T23:55:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl, time really flies.. it's been 2 months plus since i last posted.. exams over, new sem with exams results out in 1 month n 1 week... been to genting with my family few weeks back... with my dear for 2 years le... if counting from the time he went after me was like 5 years ago... haha... lol.. last fri went clubbing with leehui @ Powerhouse.. a lot of old ppl but mostly were youngsters there la.. realised really getting old liao.. few months more to 23 years old.. omg.. wat have I achieved?! Haiz... looking back at the times i used to have... there's fun n laughter with a mixture of sadness n pain... hahaha... some words were too late to say sometimes n some things were too late to be done... we shd not be living in the past n regret on any decisions, actions or words said before... saw some comments i made last time now felt it's so childish.. indeed everyone become more mature as days goes by.. many ppl come n go.. although can be so close to me might just suddenly disappeared... i hope tat all whom i loved b4 or ppl whom I came across are happy always... Till then... Below are some pics taken recently just to share...

Life...

2008-04-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

Everything feels so shitty.. stressed up at work.. exams coming.. he's not there for me again.. wat kind of life is this?! haha... Time flies.. April is coming to an end... Then May.. then my exams.. oh... looking forward to after exams.. will be going genting with my family.. then can oso relax a bit.. oso intend to take basic theory n start taking driving lessons when most of my frenz already got driving license le.. haha.. me n him oso together for almost 2 years.. have not see him for 2 weeks le... miss him so much.. but wat can i say when he wan to concentrate on his exams.. just have to let him study n dun disturb him.. it seems like everytime his exams coming then we got to 'break up' for a short while.. sianz... wat kind of relationship is this?.. too bad i love him so much.. haha.. hopefully this is his last sem n after tat he can spare time for me.. a lot of things have changed n cannot be like last time liao.. haiz.. to all my frenz, take care... Till then...

Stressed up...

2008-03-11T13:05:00.005+08:00

Hey guys, just an update of my current situation... Actually wanted to take a nap one.. so tired.. but then as usual during lunch time it is so noisy tat i cannot sleep.. due to the noise made by a few ppl in my co who dun lunch out.. haha.. as i am staring at the LCD screen i feel sleepy.. yawning away..
Just as wat my lecturer says: CNY is over, Vday is over, acca results are out.. so wat are u waiting for? lol.. tats quite true.. got to really start studying for my 3 exam papers this sem le.. I hereby declare that I failed one of my acca paper which i took last semester.. omg.. i actually failed.. n broke my own personal record for major exams.. wat a 38 marks.. n through Roy the lecturer who frequently talk crap in class, i got to know tat the passing rate for my sch is a miserable 41% for the paper which i failed.. though it somehow make me feel better, i still failed anyway n i'm probably cursing the lecturer who taught me, thanks to her ya.. hahaha... i felt disappointed sia coz i never tot i will fail it after i stepped out of my exam hall..
Tat is to say tat no matter how much effort u put in or how hard u try, u might not succeed... wat the... same goes to working... although u did wat u think is good for the co, ppl will still try to find fault in u de... i'm not going to care if anyone sees me typing this here.. i'm just going to hack care.. like wat my colleague say: haiyo, don be so sensitive lar... if watever they say is not true, then u shldnt bother... u know some pple are like dat ma... at many times i tell myself tat but still i feel so bothered... living in this world is really a torture sometimes.. I wanna get out of this place soon!! There's really so many things i keep complaining about... Where's my deardear? haiz.. i know he's busy with his studies n work as well tat he dun have much time for me so i have to understand la... hope this tough period will be over soon... Jiayou Jiayou!

Pics i took recently:

My dear niece... =)

Blogging Time!

2008-02-13T13:04:00.003+08:00

It's one of those days when I lunch in again... 3rd day of work after enjoying 4 days of chinese new year holidays.. This year my luck is better than the previous few years... keke.. it's a pity my bf side's relatives dun gamble de... oh ya... today is 'Ren Ri'... Happy Ren Ri to all!
Haiz.. been quite pissed off at work since the beginning of the year sia.. Exams results going to be out in 5 days?... Seems like someone is always not there for me... =(
Tmr is Valentine's day... Happy VDay to all! But for me, I can't get to meet him... He say he'll be working till late n want to go home n rest... Haiz... He say celebrate on Sat... Hope really as wat he said he had prepared my present & tot of where to go le.. but I guess he say say only la as usual.. I have class on Sat morning so now thinking whether to go or not... Oops... Me myself oso haven get anything for him yet... =P Hope I can get wat i wan today after work... Reminds me tat as time pass I think i like no heart like last time to specially prepare presents on those special days le.. Wat's happening to me wor...
There's so much to complain... Why is it people on the streets walking so slowly & blocking other people's way when we are rushing for time? Aren't the society we now live in is so hectic and fast-moving? Why are so many ppl fond of queueing up? Everytime got to wait & wait... Ha.. But then we really have to put ourselves in their shoes n think for them just like the story I heard on radio on mon night... I'm actually refering to tat someone... He seems to be thinking for himself more than for me most of the time... I'm tired of all these not only him but wat to do leh I love him ma... I can only bear with these n hope things will eventually change for the better... I'm always console myself tat he is much much better than many other guys le.. tat makes me stay on till now... Anyway nothing much has happen wat... Haha...

2008? Haha...

2008-01-21T13:32:00.001+08:00

I had an 'ok' xmas n new year countdown... It's been 21 days since year 2008 started... so funny to say 'Happy New Year!' liao.. keke.. But it's my 1st posting of the year... It has been a rather bad start for me... Haiz.. feeling so sian with the things happening so far... Work stress, sch starts n relationship problems(a few of u may know wats going on btw us)... all these is making me so exhausted... I seriously got no mood to work last week lor.. I looked so tired as many who seen me might noticed.. But glad things are getting better for me with my dear Sunny... Hope things will be back the same at least like few weeks back...
Chinese new year is coming.. I haven finished my CNY shopping yet... Time is running out n I only started packing a bit of my room... help! Haha... looking forward to it as well as Valentine's Day & my ACCA results out on the 18th Feb... cross my fingers... hope i dun have to repeat at all.. Elroy n Angelia(oops, they din travel together) are both now at Thailand I supposed.. So good.. must have been having lots of fun right now.. hehe.. hopefully end of this year I can go Taiwan as planned... one of my new year resolution... another one is to find a better job n pass all my essential modules for acca professional level... Hehe... Hope all will come true... =)
A short posting before I get back to work le... Till then...

Sian Sian Sian...

2007-12-14T13:28:00.001+08:00

Yo ppl, I know it's been so so so long since my last posting until got ppl complain or abandon my blog le... sorry for yet another such a short one.. Sorry Grace, though I've promised for a damn long one... Feeling so tired after my exams... Majiam like I've just came back from a war... Really scared cannot make it through this time round.. but anyway I've already registered for the frightening P1 & P2 papers for next sem... Sigh...
I'm having lunch break right now... But going back to work soon... Haiz... So not used to getting back to work after 1 n a half week of leave to study... been 'enjoying' my leave... Really wan to enjoy my 'Holidays' before my next sem... which is only another 2 weeks plus? before year 2008 comes...
He la... recently been making me angry with him.. know i wan to relax after my exams then everytime say he so tired so 勉强 for him to meet me like tat... n still book lessons for his powerboat license this weekend... i just finish my exams 3 days ago leh... wanted to go out with him.. it's been few months since we last went for movie, shopping, ktv etc... somemore this sunday is our 1 year 6 mths aniversary... He is just too careless for everything... Hmmz... i sound like I'm complaining abt him again... Wat the... but yet i feel so so so sian all bcoz of him... 我忍忍忍。。。 No matter wat i say or do still the same... Guess i only can take it or leave it ba... =(
Better dun let my boss see me writing blog... I'll try to post a long one before Xmas... Till then...

Long lost me...

2007-06-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, it's another 1 n a half month since i last update my blog... Hehe... sorry to those who still reads my blog... =P

For this period of time I can't really recall much on what happened... Can only recall events like those days studying at Woodlands library for my acca exams, my little niece coming to this world on Vesak day, my 1st aniversary with my deardear & went clubbing for the 1st time this year(i forget when was my last time, was it more than 1 year ago?)... Haha... my parents even stayed up to wait for me... think tat was the 1st time wor... last time they never did tat before... tat can really tell how long ago did i last went clubbing... Haiz... Did I really change for the better? My good fren, Grace was telling me I really changed a lot.. If not for my current bf she would have given up on me le... haha... It wasn't really tat bad right?

Me & my dear on 16 June 07

My little niece on her 1st month celebrations! She very cute hor.. hehe...

Hmmz... Actually wanted to write something up here 1 or 2 weeks ago... but either no time or always get locked up by my blogger account... i suddenly realised many frenz around my age have either got married or are planning to get ROM... & after seeing my cute cute little niece... I really have this urge to be someone's wife... probably be called Mrs Soh? Haha... I'm blushing now... better drop tat idea... I'm still young & there's so many things which i have yet to fulfill... 1st of all is my studies... which i think i most prob would have flung my 2.4 paper... i even cried when i came out of the exam hall... how can i did so badly when i spend so much time studying... hoping for miracles to happen this coming 20th of August... still got a long way to go so in the meantime i shall work hard for another 2 papers this semester which lessons will start on 10th July... Haiz... Really must Jiayou this time round... Told myself tat last semester oso though... Many many things have changed, no matter is it at work or some other areas... I can't reverse back the changes... What I can only say is tat i no longer is the old me i used to be le... I even feel tired when i'm clubbing like i no longer can be so energetic & have so much fun... old liao lo... haha..

Past... Present.. Future?

2007-05-05T14:19:00.000+08:00

Thinking about wat happened in the past:
1=Again & again
2=Puppy Love
3=Can only be good friend
4=Hate & Torturing
5=Hurt, Deep Passion
6=Like a nice dream...
7=Love & Happiness forever??

Haha... My close frenz shd know wat i'm talking about... Just a short n fast one... Till then...

Yet Another 2 months...

2007-04-25T15:30:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, pardon me for not updating my blog! Hehe... Has been busy busy busy.. Until sick again.. Haiz.. now resting at home if not oso no time to blog... =P
Life has not been too good for me... Makes me think back my life & find tat I've not accomplished anything at all in life... I'm 22nd this year liao... another few months to go b4 my birthday... =(
Life has been so meaningless i would say... Working, Schooling, meet bf, slack at home, etc... The same routine over n over again... Guess u guys would say everyone is the same ba... Haha.. & the old saying goes 'Life is happy depending on the way u see it...'... If u r optimistic, then u'll be happy even for the most simple things... Tat does not apply to me though, I'm very pessimistic de.. I may have appeared to u tat i'm always cheerful... But I'm not happy!!! Dun ask me y I'm just not... Can't seems to find back the same old me..
Just 2 days ago, I met up with Grace, Jamie n Leehui(my poly good frenz) for dinner... Heard Grace talking abt her wedding plans.. she's getting married with Deren in the beginning of 2009.. Feel so happy for her... I will be her 'Jie Mei' wor... hehe... Looking forward to tat day, but still long la.. hehe...
But looking at her makes me think of my own relationship... When will I get married? When I talk to him abt grace, he doesn't seems to have any reaction... Maybe work n sch is more impt to him but I feel... It's always the case tat he dun pick up my calls or reply to my msg whenever he's at work... I do feel very lonely at many times... Although he's quite good to me... but sometimes i feel he just dun bother... Haiz.. dun talk abt it liao...
Back to the dinner, I heard Grace n leehui talking abt their current job n salary they holding, makes me feel so inferior... they earning so much now... me leh... Haiz... 2 years n only earning like tat nia... was thinking whether i shd leave my co or remain in my 'comfort' zone with such a good environment to study part time for another 2 years while i get my acca? Help!! I feel so 'no future'... Must really really Jia You lo... Exams coming in 1 month plus le I haven start studying yet... Wat's happening to me?!... Nana...

2007?

2007-02-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

OMG... I realised I haven't been blogging at all this year... Today is already the 7th day of CNY, everyone's birthday, 'Ren Ri'. Happy birthday to all.. Haha...
Life has been busy... really busy... until i got no time to come in to blog at all... Shd I just abandon this small space i have here? Since i rarely spend time typing to post something down here.. Views, people??!!
My new year is not too bad la... Just tat lose a bit of money at gambling... Had a not bad Vday with my dear dear last week... Past my acca papers 2.1 n 2.2... haha... time to go bath already.. someone wan to use computer le... tata... till then...

17 days to 2007!!

2006-12-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

Wah... I've not been blogging for the past 85 days... As I'm reading my fren's blog I decided to pop by to write something.. His is always full of his own logic n theory... he so power can always write until so chim... For me, I'm just writing watever has happened n will be happening... Hai... Been busy with work, studies, boyfriend, friends, family... Time flies... Year 2006 is coming to an end soon... I guess many ppl will be busy with events, clearing leave as well as going for holiday vacation... Hee... As for me, I have lots of plan going on.. Like last weekend was my elder bro's chinese customary wedding... So last sat I've been busy with following my bro around to fetch my sis-in-law then sun was the so-called reception girl busy with informing guests their seat table for the wedding dinner...
This sat(which is tmr!) will be my company's dinner and dance... first time going for it... duno wat to wear leh... but i guess will be something simple, a black dress i suppose... Tired to dress up myself nowadays... Lazy ba... or shd i say getting less conscious on how I look liao... maybe waiting to be Mrs Soh le so dun care dun bother so much already... Hai.. is it good or bad like dat? haha... But I'm really xing fu... tat's the most impt isn't it? =P
Then next fri I'll be off to Genting for a relaxing 4 days 3 nights with my dear dear as well as Jamie, Siewhong, Elroy they all... hehe... Although been there before but I'm sure it's gonna be really fun going there with them.. Looking forward to it...
Looking back this year, it has been quite an eventful year for me...
Let me list down the major events here... hehe...
Feb- Broke up with Kenneth finally... (Phew! It was a hard time for me... Looking back, I think I have really been a fool for so long...)
Apr- Got myself a 3 year contract with my current employer... Broke off with Ken... (The rich guy who is always thinking of himself n how to make himself seems so 'good'... Ha...)
June- Got together with my dear dear Sunny... (Shd have accepted him 3 years back then I won't suffer so much le... But I'm really so lucky tat he is still there for me always...)
July- Started my ACCA studies...
Sep- Joined Superstar audition... guess I'm not good enough ba... But anyway this time round it wasn't tat a good show afterall...
Nov- Celebrated my 21st Birthday... Had a great birthday party... Sorry I wasn't a good host for those who came...
k la... I gtg le... Need to start work again lo... if not will get scolding le.. hee... another 3 n a half hours plus I'll be off to enjoy my weekend le... hehe...
To those reading this posting, wishing all 'MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR'!!!
(coz I doubt I'll be writing anymore blog for this year le... Sorry... =P)

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2006-09-20T23:54:00.000+08:00

Wah... Another 1 month just pass like dat... Din realised i so long din blog le... Time pass so fast tat i din have the time to take note of wat has happened recently... Now I'm feeling moody again... Duno wat happen to me... Din encounter any big prob but I really need a break!!!
Think i'll write more after I sort out my thoughts... Till then...

I am a happy woman!

2006-08-15T13:26:00.000+08:00

hm... nth to do during lunchtime as I'm eating my lunch now so decided to pop in to write something... No more cross stitch to do liao... It's tuesday... Another day of night classes... But my mood is pretty good... I feel so Xing Fu now!! The picnic trip on sunday made me n my dear's relatonship more closer n stronger le... Yesterday night he came fetch me off work... Hee.. Was actually feeling so sian coz actually wanted to go his workplace find him de but my meeting ended at 7pm when i din intend to work overtime yest... on the way home riding on his bike was feeling so tired n sleepy... but hugging him like dat feels so comfortable... Haha... When we reached my doorstep just right my dad open the door to water the plants, i tot he know we outside so open the door for me... Then my dad ask him to come in 'sit sit'... haha... so he ended up staying at my house for a couple of hours when he going home for dinner... Tonight he coming to fetch me off school... Tmr is his birthday so tmr night we going for dinner at iciban boshi... Hehe... Also to celebrate our 2nd month ani... I love u dear... Hope our love will last till the end of time...

Happy Birthday dear...

2006-08-14T13:27:00.000+08:00

The weather was really good... Sunny and very windy day... Yesterday I had lots of fun with my dear at East Coast Park... I prepared some food... Fried bee hoon, scramble egg sandwiches and pandan cake... Wat a disappointment... Coz the baking of pandan cake was a failure... I end up throwing away the whole cake... Duno wat went wrong leh... I followed the receipe but it turned out to be like dat... I guess maybe baking cookies n cheesecake is easier compared to a simple pandan cake... haha... We oso went to buy lots of titbits n drinks from supermarket but only managed to finish the pack of potato chips... So we end up bringing home all the titbits we bought... I did a cross stitch framed up for my dear... Oso got him an addidas T-shirt as his birthday present... Hee... Glad he liked them... It really feels good to relax under the mild sun with the wind blowing on our face... Nice weather nice scenary... and most important of all is the person by my side... Hehe.. Very long time din enjoy like dat le... esp previously have been working under a lot of stress... It's good to relax and forget about all the vexing work... And now I'm back to work again... Can have better energy to handle challenges at work...

The Bee Hoon...

The Sandwiches...

The Food...

The Presents

Me Smiling!!!

Happy Birthday Singapore!!

2006-08-10T13:06:00.000+08:00

Haha... as my title indicates... I realised how fast time flies... It's been a month since i last blogged.. seems like I'm back to my bad habit of not blogging often... Paiseh to those tat reads my blog...
Reason being... I've been really really busy with my work n studies... Need to clear a lot of operational work before i start working on my new project tat is going to start next week probably?... recently quite stressed up actually... feeling excited with the challenges coming my way when our project starts... there bound to be lots of OT to do... feeling scared tat i may not be able to cope with my exams tat is coming in 3mths++ time... coz i realised i've only been attending lessons but have done no revison at all... Hai...
Last friday met up with Siewhong n leehui to get Jamie's birthday present... How long ago did I last went out like dat(not taking into consideration going out with Sunny la...)?? Very long le... haha... Have been going home or to school straight after work... either too tired after OT or no one ask me go out... in the end we talked about lots of things tat we forget the time... So me n leehui missed the last train n took cab home... the fare was so ex really increase quite a bit after the recent price increase... Hai... Sat i oso went out after working almost 1 whole day in the office... met up with my ex at about 6plus to go for movies... Feeling a bit weird weird de... he also changed quite a bit since the last time i saw him... which is like about 3 months ago... he go ns liao of coz more tanned n fit le la... haha... The movie 'Click' was so nice... so funny... n yet very touching... I cried twice towards the end of the show... For those who haven watch shd go watch it wor...
Hm... Yest was National Day... Yippee... Singapore's 41st birthday... Me n my dear went to catch the fireworks near stadium area... It was so nice... Enjoyed myself... But like a bit short leh... Used my hp to take video of the fireworks... not very clear... if not i would have put up the video here...
Tmr night at 9pm at esplanade there still got fireworks performance... So we going there tmr... sat got the last session but we going for Jamie's 21st birthday party... Hehe... Then next coming(before my dad's n my da sao's) will be my dear's birthday le... 16th of Aug... planning to go east coast for a picnic on sunday... Going to be preparing food for the day... Then tmr i will be on leave... really need a good break after such a long period of slogging at work... at the same time need to prepare my dear's birthday present... Yeah... now my mood quite good... coz going for my long weekend... but now have to stop blogging le... need to go for a long meeting at 2pm... Till then... =)

Wat he said...

2006-07-05T12:59:00.000+08:00

25 June: I saw the thing(cross stitch) u make for me liao... Feel very touched... If tat time i saw it maybe i wouldn't... People will always start to cherish only when they lose something...
Next time sing song let me hear ok...
God like to play people..fate bah..aniway, it is my fault from the beginning..my retribution bah..
27 June: Can u send me the photos we used to huv one? Can reminisce
29 June: Dun huv be so workaholic.. u cal me nw can?
Tat time when your parents know we not together liao got say anything? If we be together again, like very weird hor? I miss those days when we were together... I booking out on sat...
1 July(sat): Todae u wrkin rite? Its gd n hapi if i have one of ur photos to put in my cabinet..
3 July: Okie..sori, reali veri tired..if nt call u le..gd nitez to u too..sweetz dreamz..
Todae i bk in le..u got overwrk mah? Actuali if u find someone i oso wun feel sad bah..coz its kind of retribution.
4 July: Yest so late haven slp? I miss u.. anyway nw i bald alr hor..i tink u wun like me le..haiz..find someone..? hai
Coz i noe u veri tired le..I nv sae i dun love u wad..After i saw the cute ting u make..i m to love u again le..I tot i told u before le?

The above is wat he said to me recently... Why did he choose to neglect me n hurt me tat time n now tell me all this...? Make me so sad once again... Guess we are better off as good friends...?

2006-06-22T13:03:00.000+08:00

'We break so long liao, really so hard to forget meh?'...(a msg from ken few days back)... Wat the .... So hurting... Wat is he trying to say? Very funny is it? Since he can forget all so quickly... I will do the same... Right now... I promise i will love my dear wholeheartedly le...
Being with dear is so different... not like my past few bfs... although no romantic stuff, no honeymoon period, no seeing him every moment... I feel contented le... Feels like we have been together for very long le... The feeling is so natural... I'm happy just like tat everyday just a chat on the phone or msn with him... All the sweet sweet messages from him... Hee...
Last sat we went Cineleisure to catch 'Silent Hill'... quite a not bad movie... but i dun like the ending... Hm... The first time we went out ever since we are together... shy shy... Hee... He never ask the qns... But just include a 'dear' in one of the msg he send me... Haha... Just started like dat... Reminds me of 3 years back when he went after me when i'm with kenneth... tat time he very daring de... just hold my hand like dat... haha... oso went to fetch me off work when i having attachment at Changi Airport... all the things he has done really make me feel so touched... feel quite bad when i choose to be with kenneth tat time... but... fate brought us back... and we were together again... Hee...
Hm... Today is Thursday le... Today n tmr will have to work overtime as i dun feel like coming back on sat to work... then can spend more time with Mr Sunny... Only get to see him during weekends... hoping can meet him more often when he is less busy n when he ord from mid next month onwards... missing him now... Hee... then this weekend oso meeting ting, yan they all go ktv... Yeah... My singing 'ying' oso come liao...
Hm... Guess both of us will be busy when we start our studies soon... Duno wat the future will be for the both of us... Just leave it to fate ba...

It's Friday!!

2006-06-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

Wat a busy week it has been... So fast 4 days gone le... It's Friday le... time really flies when u're busy... haha... Today after 3 n a half weeks, my best fren Kaiting will be back to Singapore from her Japan mission trip le... Yeah... Kind of miss her... Will be going airport to fetch her tonight... looking forward to wat she will get for me... haha... I've got so much to share with her lor... And i'm sure she oso got a lot to tell about her stay at Japan... How I wish i can go japan too... but the expenses there so high... can't afford at the moment la... Wait till i save enough to go... Haha... Or wait till my honeymoon time then go... haha... no bf now talk so much for wat... rite??
Yesterday he called me... Glad we could talk like frenz now... But he so bad de... Ask me this: 'Yesterday (wed) ladies night u never go chiong meh?'... Crazy lor... I long time never go clubbing le... 2006 half a year gone le i never go once... tat time because of him i oso never go.. coz i noe he dun like me to go... although he never say he dun allow la... haiz... After breakup with him i wan to go... but always can't find ka kee... hai... really long time never go le.. since last year 23 dec... Wow... So lo0ng...
Hm... he was saying tat he paiseh never reply my msg... so called me during his lunch break time... He oso ask me:'U got new one now??' I reply say:'Dun have. Not yet'... Jokingly say:'Wan to forget u ma.. wat to do'... Hai... I guess he still meant something to me... It's really so hard to forget someone... Duno is it really like wat my fren say, 'Aiya... he must be lonely in camp during bmt tats y find u la...' Or is it like wat my another fren say, 'he maybe still miss u ba... Somehow i find tat u 2 still got the chance...' Another fren was saying: 'Let him cross over his own barrier of finding u being not the future he wan la'... Haiz... the more i listen to others, the more fan i get... but I just wan 2 share with others.. if not i very 'kan bu kai'...
Although sometimes I will still cry and think of the past... I've made up my mind le... To get on with my life... Be with another guy tat will create a great future together with me... Since he can be so determined and give up on me so easily... Why can't I do the same rite? No point hanging on to a broken relationship... Hope my bf-to-be can protect me n give me the love i want... He's so sweet... Say those things tat made me so touched... Hey, if u see this, Thanks for still being here for me after so long...

Lost in the middle of nowhere...

2006-06-13T13:19:00.000+08:00

Realised have not been blogging for the past 12 days or so... Reason being... Too busy with work... Had an issue arising last last thurs in office... tats y me n almost all my colleagues have been doing overtime as well as coming back on weekends to do work... Hai.. Been busy... ya... but my mind seems to wander somewhere once in a while...
Why is love so tiring?... Been trying to forget yet unable to do so... Been trying to love someone else... I can't deny tat i really like him... the sweet feelings from the past all came back... but the moment i receive an unexpected msg from another him makes me think twice... makes me confused once again... He was saying tat he in camp not quite used to the life there... say i can call or msg him when i'm free... Reminds me of tat day, 9 june, i went to send him off to ns at Pasir Ris bus interchange... He din see me... and I was lucky tat i caught the sight of him boarding the bus with his family... Tat kind of pain... tat i shd have been on the bus with them... I feel like crying at tat moment... Although my fren was saying tat i'm silly... i have no business to be there... but yet my heart tells me to do so... no matter as a fren or as someone tat is still pining hopes on him... anyway i felt ease n happy to see him off... Yesterday was very surprised tat he would actually msg me... he say he din bring his hp to camp(tat explains y he din pick up my call last fri)... But he have actually think of me n give me a msg... tat kind of feeling is so... so... happy... yet sad... Think he only treat me as someone he can find when he is feeling lonely? Isit? I have promised him i'll always be there for him... but since he already decide to leave me... I shd really move on... n not let the past bother me... But it wouldn't he be unfair to him if i were to be with him n i still can't forget ken... Hai... My feelings for him has been true... n the kind of happiness is what i used to have...but where's the sense of security? I have no idea who i m to him... R we still frenz or r we couple already? Or maybe is i thinking too much? Really like the way he let me lie on his shoulder, hug me and touch my hair... say he miss me... msg me ask me how i have been...
When am I going to get out of all these troubles??? Really need to think through carefully before I hurt anyone or myself...

Maybe workplace is the only place i can throw away these thoughts for the moment...
The feeling is painful when I need to act like i very happy in front of him... Dun wish to let him know it hurts...

I dun have the courage...

2006-05-31T12:50:00.000+08:00

Last night, one of my ex called me... Hm... It's been long since i last talked to him on the phone... his voice like changed le... haha... maybe too long i forget his voice le... starting a bit weird weird de.. but after a while then ok le... nice chatting with him as a fren... he told me a lot of things... like he realised his mistake... he blamed himself for treating me tat way last time... he think back our past memories then say I really treat him very well during tat 3 years he feel very touched... Actually he was hoping tat he can still be with me... but really la everything is meaningless now... too late le... I told him to drop tat idea... He himself oso know tat n dun have any expectations.. can sense tat he is ok le... we can really have a good chat lor... not like last time will start having arguements n quarrels during our conversations... I'm glad he's fine... He was saying tat I really deserve someone really good n wish tat my next one will give me true happiness... hope so ba...
His call made me realised how much I loved Ken... Although yest just went to his workplace to give him something, really miss him a lot... We r like strangers now... I dun have the courage to call him... Every time wanted to call but in the end still never... Scared like nth to talk about... Dun wish to face the fact tat I can't call him dear le... we can no longer talk to each other the way like last time le... Once in a while when I in office will suddenly cry... then will have ppl walking past my workstation then must stop crying n act as nth happened... It's really torturing... Today is the last day of May... it oso marks the day he left me for 1 month le... But I really got over it le...
How I wish there's someone by my side now... I know it can't be Ken anymore... See him happy I'm happy too... But sometimes will feel very lonely... esp when I see happy couples on the street... maybe coz I have been single all this while still not used to single life ba... funny... now single le then no one is there for me... i know i have my frenz but it's still sad when I'm not with the guy tat I loves n who loves me... But no point if tat person is not worth it la... haha... So... I really hope tat those ppl tat have someone by their side already be satisfied with wat they have n cherish tat someone tat really treats them well... n to not 'xian' tat person on their weaknesses n dream of having things tat they are lacked of...
Reflecting back on the past few years... Really a lot a lot I've been through n a lot I've learnt from the people I met... A big Thank You to all those people tat has passed by my life... No matter is it giving me happy or painful memories... I think I really 'kui jiu' towards those tat have stand by me but wat I gave them is disappointment... Hm... Everything leave it to fate ba... No point 'Qiang Jiu Yi Xie She Mo'... Wats yours is yours... I won't know who I will end up with eventually... so... I'll just keep my fingers crossed... Hee.. Just hope my 'Zhen Ming Tian Zhi' will appear soon...
Have some fears for my future... Duno if I will be able to clear my ACCA which I have registered for n which classes r going to start in a month's time... Then looking back at my job, I have not made any big achievements... Wat have I been doing these days?! Hai... From now on really need to live life to the fullest n cherish every moment I have...

2006-05-26T13:13:00.000+08:00

just a short posting to summarize things I've done for the past few days...
Sat 20May: Went out with Kang Ren for dinner... Quite happy tat he dun mind spending time with me when he only have less than 2 days of book out time... Hee...
Sun 21 May: Work?! As u guys know i have a 5-days work job... but for this particular sunday... i went back office at 4pm to do some system checking before our project can be ready for rollout... work all the way till 12am monday... was damn tired tat night... lucky we r able to claim taxi fare n go work a bit later the next day...
Tue and Wed: MC... Hai... Fall sick again... Guess lack of sleep ba... Tue went for an ACCA preview talk... Decide to take 2 papers for July sem... every tue n thurs got lessons in the evening... Then on Wed went to airport to send my best fren kaiting off to Japan for her mission trip... sobsob... will be missing her... she ask me to take care of her bf-to-be... i will de, ting!
Yest: Back to work le... whole morning meeting... afternoon got a lot of manual checking to do... check until my eyes pain... Haiz... somemore some ppl in my office very fake lor... Say Bye bye to her when she leave office then she give me a damn fake smile... Wat the hell...
Today n the weekend to come: Tonight thinking of jio ppl go sing ktv... But they haven confirm with me yet... Tmr leh... No programmes leh... So Sian... Anyone free to go out with me??? feel free to ask me out...
Sorry for such a boring posting... But better than none ba... wait ppl complain i din update blog again... Haha...

Life...

2006-05-18T12:46:00.000+08:00

When will I find my Mr Right?!! Haha... Stupid qns right? Who will know... God knows... Ha... An arguement to my previous posting is tat 2 person tat know each other for a short time then go into relationship le not nec won't last ah... got some cases of happy marriage in real life oso ah...
Last night was on msn then my nick was 'I'll be waiting for him...', u guys shd know who the 'him' I'm refering to... then my fren, Alan was scolding me... He asked me to change my nick... Hai... so i just change la... but only I myself know how i feel, wat i gonna do... Last night watched 'Yu le bai fen bai' on channel U... Got my fav!! Jolin!! Hee... So I watch the show lor... at the end of it got her song 'Jia zhuang'... The moment i hear the song i really cant help but started to cry... Thinking of the past memories with him again... So hurt... Had a hard time to get to sleep... once again falling into that kind of bad mental state...
Hm... dun talk abt sad sad thing now... tonight i meeting up with Jamie's fren.. he will be introducing me in details to a course tat comprises of Singing, Dance and acting classes after which might be given chances to do casting after the course... Haha... I haven't give up on my dreams wor... Still wanna give a try... do things i enjoy... But I still considering whether to take up or not as it's quite ex... still got to pay for my school fees... My acca studies going to start soon in july... Intending to learn driving starting next year... got so many future plans wor... Haha... Must jia you le... Get a life, Ling!! Haha...
But recently there's so many things going on in my life... My project finally going to rollout le...
Busy busy busy... Then sometimes my mind will still stray to think abt my lost love... Hai... Stress!! This sunday still got to come back to work... To do checking to prepare for the rollout... Really really need a break seriously!! But i realised I'm only left with 8 days of leave till year end... Haiz... Been falling sick n taking leave tats y... Can't afford to take anymore leave le ah... Need to leave some days for studying exam at the end of the year...
Hm... Life still has to get on no matter wat...

Dancing Diva

2006-05-17T12:44:00.000+08:00

Jolin's new Album, Dancing Diva(Wu Niang)

I would say this album is really not bad... A little different from her style of songs in her previous 3 albums with Sony Bmg... Released on last fri, i went to purchase the presale copy before tat n it comes with a poster... which is now hanging in my room... haha... my dream is to be like her... not the sexy part but the glamour n talent she has and been recognised after working so hard for the past few years... I'll support her all the way!! But like any other artistes, there is bound to be ppl liking her a lot while some others dun... Jia you wor, Jolin!! Haha... Although i know she wouldn't be able to see my blog la...

Back to commenting her songs in this album, I would say most of the songs are nice... except one or two of them... Out of the 11 tracks, I think this time round not much of a very strong dance song style... Got 3 very very very nice songs tat i really really like a lot... all slow one... maybe coz they depict my low de feeling recently... The songs are 'Jia Zhuang'(Track4), 'Li Ren Jie'(Track 7) and 'Zui Zhong Hua'(Track 10)... Very meaningful lor... like this one in the lyrics of my fave song 'Li Ren Jie', goes like this: 'Ni Shi Chen Jing De Yong Yuan, Hui Yong Yuan Zai Wo Shen Bian'...

I think I should really just keep those memories i have with him in my heart... accept the fact tat we can only be frenz now... I think he is happier now n i shd carry on with my life... Thanks all my frenz for listening and encouraging me when I feel so lost for the past few weeks... I realised there's many ppl out there tat loves me and cares for me... Hee.. Like tat i feel Xingfu le... No need to be attached to feel Xingfu... Single oso good ma as my frenz were telling me... But of coz I'm still hoping to have someone there for me... Still have hope for love... Although been hurt so much in the past... haha...

Tat day was having a discussion with my sis-in-law... she was telling me not to be so good to guys... must learn how to 'Diao Qi Lai Mai'... Haha... But i guess i'm lousy at this... like many of my frenz say... guys like bad gals... then the relationship will last longer if the gal not so good to the guy then the guy will be more committed to get their love going on as he like the gal very much... Maybe u guys out there can tag me on my tagboard to give comments on whether gals shd not treat their bf so well?? Maybe because I treat him too well le then this is one of the reason y he will leave me de... although i dun quite understand la... haha...i like a bit thick skin hor... but it's true tat i treat him the best out of all my previous exs... really have been very committed n put in a lot of effort coz he is oso the nicest bf i had la... Although it's only 2 months la... such a short time... so many ppl dun understand y i so 'kan bu kai'... haha... i guess he really mean a lot to me... i still pending for the day to meet up to have a good talk with him... think he wouldn't have the chance to view my blog oso... Haiz...

P.S: Sorry for so much Han Yu Pin Yin, coz i dun have chinese software to type chinese characters...

13th day of singlehood...

2006-05-13T11:50:00.000+08:00

Still not used to being single... Seems like all the way attached since 3 years ago... Seeing couples so loving on the streets makes me envy... Why they can be with the ones they love.. And not me... It's not coz I dun have a bf... More importantly, it's coz i've lost him... The one I'm deeply in love with... even till now... As my nick on msn now says 'I'll be waiting for him... I just hope he'll be happy...' It may be silly but maybe tats wat I'll do ba... Wait for him to come back to me... It seems quite impossible though... Since he din contact me le... Once in a while i will pop by his shop to see him but dare not let him see me... scared he find me annoying... once in a while he will reply to my msg.. then halfway will stop... 'He say he's really sorry'... 'He say he scared he'll be wasting my time...' Wat does he really mean? How I wish i get to know how he feels... But I really have no idea as he dun wanna say... thinking of asking him to meet up... but i think he will refuse ba...
Hm... It's another long weekend... really got to have fun n relax abit liao.. It's been so stressful at work... With the project going to end soon... a lot of work needs to be done... it's been busy n fast week... On top of tat, my own personal feelings also making me so vexed up... feel like my brain is going to breakdown... Haha... Time is running out... I have less than 45 hours before i go back to my battlefield to work hard for the next 1 month or so... No leave is to be taken... I'm kind of the main person in charge for this phrase of project rollout... I must jia you jia you jia you...
Yesterday I went out with a fren tat I've known for around 2 years le... but we haven seen each other yet until yest... we went marina sq watch movie... Poseidon... It's a pretty nice movie... U guys shd go catch it... Hee... Anyway it's quite nice going out with Derrick... We went to play pool oso... But I so lousy de... Keep losing the game.. Haiz...
Today is Saturday... I have two 21st birthday parties to attend... First is to Dingxin's house... He's my Sec sch fren... Quite surprised he'll invite me... really appreciate tat... Hee... Then after tat is go my good fren, Angelia's chalet at costa sands... need to travel around abit... Hope will have lots of fun today... think i shall throw away my troubles for the time being n enjoy myself tonight...
As for tmr... I going to acc my mum go shopping... She wants to get 2 outfits for her company's 25th aniversary dinner... At the same time i'm going to treat her for a meal as i won't be around at home tonight for dinner when my family are going to celebrate mother's day... Haven really had the time to shop around for quite some time le... Hope can buy another new top, a sports bag, a pair of levis jeans and perfume for myself...
k la... think tats all for now... see when free then blog again ba... take care guys...

I'm single now...

2006-05-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hai... Now then i realise how many days I have been escaping from reality... The fact tat he has left me... The fact tat he choose to give up on our relationship... Coz of a very lame reason... He's such a coward... He doesn't love me enough... Recalling times tat we spend together really made me totally sad and went into insane mental state for the past few days... I fell sick... not just physically but oso mentally... Really feel like getting away from all this nonsense or fall into deep sleep n no need to wake up forever... Very silly isn't it? I'm so sorry to my dear fren Kaiting and her BFTB for bearing with my craziness on Sat night the day before the breakup... Such a disgrace for laughing n crying so loudly in front of other ppl at esplanade after getting drunk... Even wanted to rush out to the road n let the cars just knock over me... Thanks to kaiting for pulling me back n scolding me to wake me up... She cried for me when she see me like tat... Haiz... My frenz were telling me wat for? Dun be too sad... Dun think too much... Maybe he got his reasons to leave u? U deserve a better guy... These are wat I heard from my good frenz... But I could see the sadness n tears in his eyes when i went to look for him at his workplace on Tues... Makes me wonder... Why did he leave me? Why is he so sad too? I duno... He dun wan to say... He dun have anyting to say to me... My feelings right now at this moment is... I can only accept wat he said... I need to move on n live my single life to the fullest... Maybe coz of so much hurt from the past, this time it's easier for me to get over it... But i'm really really hurt... He can just like tat deny all tat we had in the past n the future plans we made... all tat he said before are all lies... I can't trust anyone so easily now... Just let me learn to enjoy my single life ba...

My dear's 21st Birthday!

2006-04-17T13:15:00.000+08:00

15 April 2006 is a special day for me... Y?? Not my birthday but somebody else's... But tat someone is very special to me... It's my bf's 21st Birthday...
Prior to tat day, I've spend a lot of time preparing for it... Like asking his best fren, Junwei to help gather his good frenz for a big surprise... Make something for him (but i din managed to complete it yet even after so many late nights, sobsob)... Running around to look for his present... Go for manicure session, buy new clothes for tat day... and bake a cheesecake for him...
Then on Thurs night, he give me a very disappointing news... tat is... he gonna start work on sat, his own birthday! How come he can be so blur neh.. forget about his own birthday... forget about our plans for tat day... Haiz... tat means we dun hv much 'er ren shi jie' time lor... Then was busy with decorating his birthday cake tat I forget to wish him happy birthday at 12am sharp... so became the 2nd person...Haiz... haha... but sat turns out to be not too bad... coz he woke up late then nv turn up for his job...
Sat came and I went to pass Junwei the cake and the birthday present which is a Lamborgini model car... He help me keep the presents first before we meet up for the surprise dinner... I went to meet my dear at taka at around 6plus in the evening... I walked around first as he was with his family... I saw him with his mum n bro but din go n call him as I tot he din wan me to meet his mum yet... But guess wat... He called me when I tot he has bid goodbye to them... When I went to meet him, his mum n bro was beside him... Wat I shock I had... hehe... As I a bit not prepared to meet her yet... Scared she dun have good impression of me... Din know he had actually introduced me as his gf le... very happy... Hee... I just greet her with 'auntie'... then we said goodbye to them...
After we were on our own, we duno where to go so went to cineleisure to see wat movie can we watch after the dinner... I booked table at Jack's Place Orchard at 7.30pm... Had a reason y I had to book table... coz I invited 5 of his good frenz through Junwei to suddenly appear to give him surprise... Hee... Also I asked for a table for 2 first then when they reach change to a table for 7 so that Ken won't suspect when we arrive at Jack's Place... I bluff him say I go toilet... In fact I went to meet them outside... At first was thinking of carrying the cake myself into the restaurant to our table but I scared paiseh... so Daniel suggest asking the waiteress to bring in the cake 10 mins after we went in... Hehe... When I went back to the table where he was waiting for me, it gave him a big surprise to see his good frenz appearing... He was so shocked and happy to see them... The 2nd surprise was when the birthday cake done by me was brought to our table... hehe...
He was so happy n touched by the arrangements made by me... Tat he altogether said 7 times 'Thanks, dear' to me on sat n sun... See him so happy I oso very happy... Next was the model car I bought for him... He liked it... but dun like the colour... so he went to the shop to exchange it yest.. The only bad thing is i chose the wrong colour for him... he like the metallic gold one where I got a metallic dark grey for him...
After the dinner, we bid goodbye to his frenz then went to watch 'The producers', which turns out to be a musical kind of movie which we initially tot was a movie like 'The scary movie' kind... But it wasn't too bad afterall la... After the movie we took NR6 home... At first he tot of leaving my house early in the morning at 6... but we were too tired tat when i wake him up at 6... he very tired... so end up sleeping at my house till 3pm yest... Hehe...
He keep saying I treat him too good tat he owe me a lot... hehe... silly boy... Glad tat I made it a special 21st birthday for him although there wasn't any chalet or party...

1st posting of April

2006-04-10T18:36:00.000+08:00

Wah... Din realise I so long never write a posting here le... Now I'm still in my office... Waiting for my bf to come fetch me home... dun feel like working le so just pop by to write something here... Hm.. It's going to be mid of apr liao... Life has been pretty fine for me... Doing well with my bf... Then this afternoon just got to sign my 3 year contract... Wonder if I'll stay at my current job throughout the whole of 3 years...
Last last sat, a group of us: HongSeng, Shenyan, Kaiting, Hoe Soon, Junhe, me and my bf meet up to celebrate Seng's birthday... Was a belated celebration... Eat at Hawker Centre only... But then all of us went to Mount Faber there see the night scenary and take quite a lot of pics... Never put up here coz Seng haven send me yet... Hee... All of us had a not bad time... =P
The following day leh... Was my ah ma's 90th birthday celebration... Just had a simple gathering with my relatives at my ah ma's house... Got buffet my mummy ordered de... But then... I brought my bf there... coz my ah ma was like asking I so fast get a new bf liao... Ask me to bring him to see her... She old ppl like many ppl come her house... Hee... A bit paiseh... So many relatives got to see him oso... Think they oso surprised to see another guy not Kenneth...
Then this weekend pass very fast with my bf around... It's another sat of sleeping whole day... Hee... Coz slept very late... haha... Then today back to work again... Monday blue blue de...
K la... Think he about to reach le I can leave my office soon... Till my next posting...

Happy 21st Birthday, Elroy!

2006-03-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

Last week seems to pass by really fast... Today is Tuesday le... I had a nice weekend... but like so fast back to work again le...
Last sat went to Elroy's chalet at Costa sands with my bf and Jamie... Celebrating his 21st birthday... But the actual day is tmr... Happy Birthday to u, Elroy!! Hee...
His birthday cake very very cute... Got his head with a muscular man figure... Haha... Had lots of fun there... We drank Chivas with coke and Volka with sprite... After drinking a few cups at one shot(da) with the birthday boy, I got drunk... Haha... Head so dizzy... Like a dream like tat... Couldn't walk properly oso... So throw face... So crazy... The first time i got so drunk sia... They were saying i was talking very loudly... haha... Wasn't really feeling too good to get drunk... But i know i can depend on my bf and Jamie to send me home... Elroy oso drink a lot... he got very happy n high tat night... and hugged everyone... Ha...
When Jamie drive us back(she din drink any alcohol)... on her van, i started to cry... duno y will cry though... I know he dun like me to drink like tat de... like a bad gal... they got a shock when i was crying... say i cry very loudly... but i guess when drunk, i duno tat i'm getting loud even though i tried to control... finally after crying for a while we reach my house le... when i closed the car door, I bang on my small finger... couldn't feel the pain oso (but started to feel pain when i'm sober)... sobsob... it's still painful now... then my bf send me upstairs while jamie waited for him...
But i was still crying... i never drink until like tat before... I din wan my dad to see me like tat... i think he will scold me if he see me like dat... Seeing me crying, Ken keep on console me ask me not to cry... say he will stay back to acc me... so he ask jamie to go back home... Lucky my parents were asleep le... if not sure ganna scolding... I'm very grateful to my bf for staying by my side... Hee... but was feeling giddy the whole night sia... Thanks to Jamie for sending me back oso... Think she never see me like tat before ba... So paiseh tat night... Haha...
Sunday was sleeping day... We so tired until late afternoon then we wake up go out eat... tats y i feel tat my last weekend was so short... Hehe... Anyway I had a great time... =)

Why will people have a change of heart?

2006-03-24T12:47:00.000+08:00

Hey guys... It's lunchtime... Today no one acc me eat lunch... Sobsob... I got nth to do as I'm eating my chicken cheesesticks from Burger King... so decided to pop by to write something... Hm... was feeling a bit low yest as there's suddenly no plans for my friday night... been looking forward to it de... Haiz... How i wish can acc my bf go visit his grandma... Haiz... But can't... I now feeling better le... shd be meeting Leehui for coffee tonight... quite some time din meet up with her le...
Anyway, I'll like to thank my usual supporters for this blog of mine... ppl like Angelia la, Grace la... Still got anymore? Can tag me to let me know tat u always read my blog... Hehe...
Hm... this morning suddenly got some thoughts... Why will ppl have a change of heart while in a relationship? I see many cases around me... Is it because of someone better out there? Is it people duno how to cherish? Is it too bored over the same person after some time? Is it due to the changing environment they r in? It is coz they dun really love their partner? There can be many reasons but.... .... Isn't the LOVE for each other enough to keep 2 person's mind together?? Have they forgotten how they got to know each other, how they fell in love with each other? Can promises made be kept? Why do feelings change? ... ... Too much endurance is not good... Like how my previous relationship ended up... Makes me wonder if love still exists between me n him... No one knows what's going to happen in the future... Let's hope all happy couples in this world stay together happily ever after...

Teambuilding Course and my weekend...

2006-03-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

I'm at home right now coz i never go to work... Sick sick... On mc... Sobsob...
Anyway, I had a great day yesterday at Sijori Resort in Sentosa for an Teambuilding course organised by my company... Had lots of fun playing games both outdoors and indoors, oso got to know a few ppl...

Tat's me and my colleague, Ximin...

Friday has been quite nice but kinda waste my leave lor... Meet my bf only in the evening... We went Bugis Junction... He got stopped by ppl from Prudential company for a savings plan roadshow... He sat down to listen to them so I have to join in lor.. But we din sign up for any plans la... Went shopping and I bought a new wallet black colour de with rose carvings from Wallet shop... a pair of white training shoes with pink stripes from Adidas... Hee... After which we went to look for his mini disc... after asking around managed to find a shop selling but damn ex leh... then many shops not selling anymore... so din buy lor... hai...
After tat, we left bugis to have dinner at my aunt and uncle's newly open food stall selling Bah Kut Teh and Kway Chap... It's at Geylang Lor23, in Victoria Foodcourt... Called 'Cai Ji Rou Gu Cha'... The food there quite nice de... Doing a little advertisement for my Aunty here... Friends!!! Can just drop by to eat there ok?? Or see when can I bring u guys go eat... Hehe...

Saturday leh... I got this $10 Baker's Inn voucher from my supervisor as last year's xmas gift... then 18Mar was the expiry date ma... so me n my bf went to eat there... the food there so ex de... we ordered 3 cakes and 2 drinks... & still need to fork out another $20 like dat on top of the voucher... but the cakes and coffee was nice...
After tat we went to meet Jamie go Huiling's 21st birthday party... Got to know this fren of hers tat is working with a company tat is scouting talents... He ask me to contact him if I'm interested to go down for singing audition then sign up for their singing courses... I'm still considering... maybe will take up... as now not like last time no money to take up singing class... haha...
My bf was suggesting to play pool with jamie... as I once mentioned tat as a gal she played very well... so she drove us with her dad's van to a place called Grandlink recommended by my bf at paya lebar there... hehe... they keep losing to me leh... coz they hit the black ball in or the white ball when they were trying to hit e black one... haha... my pool skills much lousier than them lor... they quite pro de... jamie was shi fu ma... haha... Then my bf was always saying tat he play pool very well... well, it's true... hehe... After the pool game, we were hungry so went for supper... Guess where we went?? My aunt's stall again...

Life...

2006-03-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Today never meet him again... sobsob... wanted him to acc me go buy new wallet de... but he not feeling well leh... hai... he sick i oso sad sad de... friday then can meet him lor... taking leave to relax myself... before the busy testing tat starts next week... scared have to do OT often then no time to acc him... he oso say he wanna see me... but i duno leh... will feel a bit insecure when he keep asking about my good fren, XX... then he ask me not to think too much... guess i must give myself more confidence... must jia you wor yanling!!!
damn tired now... coz slept at 5am yest... i mean this morning... chatted with him on the phone... in the end woke up late... 8.30am... hai... so took timeoff lor... bo bian... dun feel like sleeping yet leh... wake up then got to go work le... so no life leh... hai... everyday go to work like zombie like dat...
this afternoon at office was thinking of 3 weeks ago i'm still with kenneth then now i'm with my dear... the change is so drastic... but i'm glad he came at this time... haha... this is call 'zai dui de shi jian yu jian dui de ren??'... Hee... I will cherish wat i have n stay happy now... not let the ppl who care abt me worry de...

Why has human become so complicated?

2006-03-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

As I was reading one of my friend's blog, I was wondering how come he has so many things to write? His posting is always so long... Sometimes when I wanted to type, my mind just get stuck and in the end i can only write a very short one...
hai... Why recently find that human can be such complicating? Love is such a simple thing but yet some ppl out there can make things sound so bad so sour? I still believe in love... It's the character of ppl tat makes love complicated... One of my best fren... I shan't mention names here... She is acting in a way tat i think many of us can't accept... she is having a bad reputation already... n as a close fren of her... i'm feeling very sad and disappointed tat she is no longer the gal i used to know... It's seriously not nice to play around with ppl's feelings... or maybe is she duno how to react to guys ba... haha... finding excuses for her... whatever... I'm not her... I can't control how she feel... wait I interfere she not happy... then it will once again hurt our friendship... but i really dun wish to see her 'yi cuo zai cuo'.... but wat can I do? But watch them hurt themselves?
Just some thoughts i suddenly have, so I've put them down here... All the best to all the 'you qing ren'...

I'm glad I've found him...

2006-03-05T20:17:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, I'm really really sorry for not putting any postings on my blog for such a long time... although maybe now no one reads my blog anyway...
hm... now that I no longer have to spend so much time with someone... I now have the freedom to do what I like to do... for example, can write blogs more often le... hee... Past has been gone for good... I dun wish to mention about it le...
A lot of things has happened for the past few weeks... until i duno wat to type here... there's too much to say... time passes by so quickly...

I'm so happy I've got him... He's really very good to me... We just started not long ago... So far so good... I'm missing him right now le... Hehe... To my dear... Thanks for all the love and care you've given me...

Sorry for such a short one... Promise will write a long one when I have more to fill u guys in... Take care my dear friends...

First posting in 2006!

2006-01-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hey all... A Very Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...!!! To all those who view my blog... Apologies for not writing here for so long... Haiz... Oh ya... Happy Chinese New year as well... Just in case my next blogging session is after next month... Will be very busy with my work in Jan from next week onwards...

Hm... A review of my past few weeks:
Had a not too bad xmas this year no no... i mean last year... as was able to gather a few of my good friends go clubbing at Zouk on the 23 Dec to kind of celebrate xmas in advance... even asked them to bring along a present each to exchange... Quite fun... Too bad it ended in a rush... as everyone was like at different parts of Zouk, some at dance floor, some with their friends they met there... My da Sao came along with me so in the end my bro keep calling and asking her to go home... then i have to go back with her... took a ride from her fren's car... he still drive when he had a couple of drinks... lucky nth happen sia... haha...

New year kind of sucks... but it was still fine la... spend the 3 whole days mostly slacking at home... Nothing much to do leh... just acc him lor...

And then came this week when i went shopping for new year clothes yesterday n on tues night... wondering y am i buying so early? coz afraid of next week's heavy workload then dun have time to shop for nice nice stuff... Now only left with a top, a pair of shoes and accessories to go along with... dun wan to anyhow buy but wan 2 settle them asap... Hee..

kk... I've got nth much to say le... anyway pardon me if i have been writing boring stuffs here... my life is dull and tiring... so... tats all i have to say... Till then...
Take care my friends...

saturday...

2005-12-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

hi guys... It's been long since i wrote something here... Now I am at my cousin's place... Just had steamboat dinner and has been feeling quite bored since a few hours ago... nothing much to do here... so decided to log in and write something here... there goes my saturday...
hm... for the whole of this week... it has passed by very quickly... working... busy working... the same old stuff... but then something happen that makes me realised... how unimportant or shall I say i mean nothing at all to some ppl out there... used to think tat i have fostered a good relationship with one of my colleague whom i treated as my good fren or even like a sister... but.... maybe she doesn't think this way... just because of one particular statement i've made in my email... which somehow... made her angry or something... I don't mean anything tat way... but why is she thinking tat i am unwilling to join her for my another colleague's farewell lunch... what she wrote in her email... has made me very very disappointed... the days we've been through together for the project training... the days she used to care and support me... has all been washed away... tat day... wednesday... i spend also an hour crying in front my work desk... tears went down my cheeks... which i feel worthless... she don't understand my thoughts... which i tot was pretty obvious tat i was being left out during our lunch breaks for the past few weeks... ever since the 'another colleague' joined us for lunch... there they were busy chatting away treating me as if i was invisible... and now... my so-called good fren cum sister... stood on her side... They had became so good sia... haha...
hai... wat can i say... forget it... she's not the only one tat has done this to me... wat have done to deserve this?? Can someone tell me?? Why is it tat frenz tat used to be so close can suddenly ignore u or even become so fake... all the friendship in this world could become so fragile... so worthless.. lost...

Busy life... No life...

2005-11-01T15:42:00.000+08:00

Wah... It's been a month since I last posted something on my blog... Time really flies... So fast... Hm... been busy working lor... wat else... dun have the time to really relax myself... and to sit down in front of my comp to write stuff... guess i'm a very boring person... dun have much interesting stuff to write... cant think of much... blank mind... brain shut off.. Haha...

Here's an update of how I spend my days in the month of October...

8 Oct: Sentosa Trip
Went Siloso Beach to suntan with Angelia... 2 of us go only... but met my fren, Jeffrey... who always play volley at sunset bay almost every Sat... and surprisingly saw Johnathan(my sec classmate) there... Hee... He and Jeffrey were Volleyball mates... Very long never see the both of them le... but only meet up for about 5 minutes only? Hm... It was pretty fun tat day... although a bit no sun as it was raining in the morning... overall feel very relaxing tat day... Quite long never enjoy the breeze and tranquility of being at a beach... feels great... must go there often liao... haha...
Should be going again this Thursday... So nan de got 2 PH in a week.. But tmr still got to go back to work rush my work...

On the way to sentosa... On nel...

I love the wind...

15 Oct:
Meet up with my 1st bf... Wei jian... Very long din see him le... I think more than ever since I graduate from school... He became more fit ba... Now serving the nation... We went play pool and drink coffee at Spinelli(hope din get the spelling wrong)... Saw Weijian, Weizhong, Xinhui and Weilian... haha... The superstars... They having their autograph session at Heeren... We Gang hao walk past... Too bad Wei jian forget to bring his cd cannot sign it... Quite a nice and relaxing afternoon... Hai... Then after tat a few days he told me so stuff tat make me feel weird... duno wat to say... after 3 years then say... everyting too late le...

22 Oct:
Meet up with my kor's ex gf... the one before his wife now... We just meet up talk talk and went eat lunch at Hans... Time really flies... He got so many gf then now settle down le... Haha... Then i oso made frenz with 2 of his gf... hehee...

Last week:
Been very busy with my job because of a major project rollout so the whole company was like working for long hours... on tuesday onwards... I work till 10.30 on wed night then i took a ride on my guy colleague's bike... the first time i ride on a bike... haha... quite fun but at the same time scary... coz he drive quite fast... then oso quarrel with my dear coz he dun like me to sit on a guy's bike... I know he's worried for me... Dear I'm really sorry...
Just last Sunday only... Me and my dear went to visit one of our frenz who landed in the hospital because of self speed on his bike after their ktv session on the way home... Broke his leg and his lungs got inner bleeding... lucky now alright le... Scary hor... To all those frenz out there tat owns a bike... do be careful when riding...
Hm... Monday n Tuesday last week was bad... My best fren actually kind of forget about my birthday then went ahead to plan all the fun activities without counting my share... been rather disappointed... to think tat i thought i will sure find one day specially for them to spend to celebrate my birthday since I long time never meet up with them le... been spending my weekends with my dear... they oso never ask me out for their outings, like iceskating, cycling, bowling... never once i get to go... Hai... Feel left out... Glad this kind of feeling has go away le... :)

This week:
Haha... seems like this week has just started... Today only Tuesday... Yesterday rushing my work at office till about 8... So tired... but thinking of can go chiong on halloween night will be so energise... Haha... Coz really very very very long never go clubbing le... Was quite fun... went to club momo with Leehui... met up with her colleague... the second time i dance on the dance floor only... usually just sit at the bar chat with frenz... down there was really noisy... music very loud... cannot hear wat the others saying... need to shout so much until i no voice... but lucky today alright le... drink quite a lot tat i really the most shack b4 sia... but after dancing for like half an hour be sober... was so hot until i sweat after dancing... haha... after clubbing i walk with them to Maxwell food centre to eat some food... after tat went home by sharing cab and reach home about 5am... haha... everyone was like so tired... think i'm the most awake of them all... haha... Too bad din take any pics to show...

Now here i am blogging away... sitting in front of the comp for almost 2 hours le... haha.. chatting msn at the same time type down here... feel relax and happy tat can spend time at home listening to Jay chow's new album songs... although tmr still have to go work... but Thursday is another holiday... Hari Raya Puasa... Hee... They planning to go Sentosa on Thursday... Then Saturday we going ktv... hehe... hope it's going to be fun... but i'm missing my dear right now... He's working now... YEah... hopefully can see him tmr after work... k la... tats all for now... till the next time i write another posting... Duno when will it be haha...Tata... Take care guys... :)

Congratulations to my elder brother!

2005-09-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

Hm... Finally have the time to write something here... Have been busy with work at the same time got to spend time with my bf as he's been booking out everyday... feeling quite sian when my dad criticised about my deardear... like stuck in the middle... duno wat to do to make things better... hai...

Talk about something happy ba...Today is my bro's ROM day... specially took urgent leave to attend the ceremony... the wedding lunch was nice... he booked 2 tables at a restaurant in Raffles City... Feel happy for him as he finally settled down with his gf, Fiona after they go steady for about a year or so... thinking tat he has been quite 'hua xing' in the past few years... Haha... He's oso still young, only 23 this year so fast married already... Then me n my dear already together for 2 and a half years... Shouldn't we do the same too? Haha... Nevertheless, I wish the two of them together happily ever after... and faster give birth to a child so tat i will have a niece/nephew to play with...

Hai... pardon me for writing such a short posting... duno wat to write oso... a lot of thoughts but duno how to put it down in words... anyway, i thanks all the people tat have came into my life...each of u make up a part of my life... i'm missing some ppl out there tat may have lost contact with me... sobsob... i'm feeling sick right now... nose keep running throat hurts... hope i will get well by tmr morning if not it's going to be terrible for me... tmr still got to rush my work... k la... tats all for now... take care guys...

Depression...

2005-08-22T19:30:00.000+08:00

Hai... Hai... Hai... Here I am... Still at work place... Rushing some stuff... think I dun wanna faster finish? Is becoz the stupid system so slow.. then take the time to write blog lor... So stressful... got so many deadlines.. esp these few weeks... this is the 4th day in the month i work till so late le... got $20 pay per day if work till after 9pm... hai... i rather go home sia... who can understand me?! I'm like the only one left to do those testing stuff... CAN someone HELP me??? Living like hell... Start to think tat i'm suffering from some kind of depression...

Yesterday did something that I regretted a lot... scolding my mum bad words... I know this sounds really bad... really feel guilty of wat i've done... Had apologised to my mum... got scolded by both my elder bro and my bf... sobsob... Wat right does HE has to scold me? HE has never really taken care or be concerned about me... HE has never done his duty as an elder bro... HE is only doing his duty as a son... My bf is saying tat he's my bro afterall... but he's not really fit to be one... He just doesn't know his sis... He scold me bad words then can hor... i have always wanted brotherly love from him... but wat do i get... to think tat i still source around for his wedding gift... wat for... i know wat he did was right... he scolded me was right... but before doing tat can he reflect on himself first...

I wan a break from all my troubles!!! Work, bf, friends... I wanna have time for myself!!!

3 stories...

2005-08-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

Do i really like him or is he just a substitute of someone?
but think again, if I don't, I wouldn't be so silly...
I want to, but I can't...
I feel miserable...
Am I thinking too much?
Maybe some things are not meant to be said...
Did he like me at all?
Why is he so nice to me?
I like being with him...
Maybe I'm not anyone to him,
Who am I to him? haha...
Maybe I dun really like him?
Does he really don't need someone to be there for him?
I hate to fall in love with him...
Why do i miss him so much?
Why do my feelings change?
Why did I keep hoping to see him, to hear from him?
Stop being foolish, so wat if u like him, wanna be with him?
I really hope to hear from him his true feelings for me...
but maybe I'll slowly forget about him as time goes by, when i stop thinking of him, stop contacting him, stop seeing him...

Tears has never been so hard to drop, crying was my history, I feel numb...
Why did he choose to do this?
Did he ever love me before?
Didn't he know what I've done for him?
Why is he not the guy i used to know anymore?
Do i deserve such treatment from him?
Is the one he's with right now the right one for him?
I love him very much so I dun wanna leave him?? haha...
I will learn to give up on u is because i love u too much?? haha...
I think I shd stop thinking of him...
But how has he been recently?
I've not heard from him for long...
I sincerely hope he cherish what he has by his side now...
& I will forget the hurt he has caused for me...

Do I really love him that much?
Is love really enough to keep a relationship going?
Did he really need me?
Does he really need a girlfriend?
Isn't love suppose to be simple?
Isn't love suppose to be tat you wanted that person to be happy?
Since when has love become like this?
So many things has happened, y can't he just face the reality?
What am i still holding on to?
I do love him, don't I? If not I wouldn't do that...

I'm not in the position to love anyone...
I'm losing the original me...
Sometimes I just wanna be alone...
I will try my best de...

I'm feeling sick...

2005-08-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

~Work~
something is wrong with me... I have been feeling unwell recently... because of the stress I get from my work, I seems to get some kind of work phobia... hai... since the last week has been losing my concentration, vomiting out the food tat i've eaten, feeling very restless leh... yesterday cried in front of my supervisor... went home halfway to rest then today on mc... duno y oso... even tot of changing job sia... but ain't working life suppose to be stressful... no matter where i go still will be the same... so fast have been working for close to 4 mths le... met a lot of nice colleagues... especially my closest fren, Ximin... We have been happily working together for more than 2 mths in the irin project for our company... now tat she's transfered back to production, i some sort of lose my 'yi kao'... Very sad when she shifted back yesterday... I even cried lor... I really must jia you le... a lot of things must depend on myself... have to overcome the fear i have for work... so paiseh... telling u guys abt my 'chou shi'... so silly right? throw face... hm... I have tot about it n decided to pick myself up... try my very best to challenge myself on my job... no matter wat got to face it... cannot be like a child le... grow up le... going to be 20 soon... must buck up... must learn to be strong... cannot see problem then cry... haiyo...
~Love~
Not only work got problem... my l0ve life oso... Y i m so confused whether i love my bf anot after we have been together for close to 2 n a half years?? haiz... have been thinking of whether he has been the right one for me... thinking of it for quite a long period of time... everytime when i told him i wanna break up... he will always convince me not to change my mind to be with him... n i just dun bear to see him so sad n hurt... will always be soft-hearted n ask myself... Do I really dun love him? Do i really have to break up with him? Can the problem be solved? Am i wasting my time to be with someone I not sure i could spend the rest of my life with? Or am I not fit to love anyone? help!!
~Friends~
Friday has been a really nice day... It's my poly graduation!! So happy to go back to school to get my cert... the time we have all been waiting for... at the same time might be the last time I visit NYP... really really really miss my poly sch life... so happening so enjoying 3years... have made lots of good friends... the memories of those days will always be kept in my mind... tat day was busy spending time taking many photos with those tat had made part of my life special... Thank u all my frenz... We must always keep in touch ok... Now tat we r all entering into another stage of our lives being working adults or pursuing further studies or guys tat r going through NS...I wish all of u all the best to your future endearvours...

Here's some of the photos taken on tat day (29Jul2005)... (More will be uploaded when i get them from my frenz's camera)...

Me!!

My dear Mummy and Me!!

Jiahui, Me, Kit Yee and Angelia!!

20th July!?!

2005-07-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

Oh my god... Today is already the 20th of July and I have not written anything for this mth... Not tat nth has happened to me or I 've got nth to talk abt... Just tat I've never realised tat I have not been updating my blog since abt a mth ago... Really have been so busy tat I dun have the time to do so... So sorry... For those who reads my blog... hehe...
Hm... Right now like a bit difficult to back track wat has happen for the past few weeks... So let me share wat is on my mind recently...
Got to noe this guy, XX... (Better not mention any names here)... Have noticed there's this person in NYP since the last semester of school... hm... he seems to be the one tat caught my attention then... however, tat time I din get to know him...
Last sunday, went out with my best frenz... then 1 of my frenz met XX... So she kind of introduced him to me... Which was how I got to noe him... Oso tried out a few outfits in his shop tat he is working in... but I managed to get his no when I went back to the shop to get it from him... so paiseh sia... haha...
So for the next few days, we chatted through sms and phone... Then he so sweet de... knew i was sick so went to get medicine for me from pharmacy... Really appreciate a lot man... A bit touched then kind of like him lor... Guess I'lll just keep a distance away from him... Maybe it's just one-sided liking... Haha... he's just concern over a fren? hm... I shall let myself think this way ba... Y Am I Like This??? Got bf le still like other guys... Wah lao... Urgh... So angry with myself...
Life sucks... esp Work... So stress... 1 of my collegue leaving the dept le... so i have to like take over her duties... BUt the prob is... until now I cant really cope with it leh.. a lot of stuff I still duno wats going on...I'm kind of worried since it's like she is left with very little time to give me training n clarify doubts... Sometimes really can't take it ah... so many stuff to handle... Really crazy until.. pluck flower, play with my hair or worse still... tear up money... HaHA... see la... I'm toking nonsense liao... Really too stress up!!! Have to do something to relax myself le... Maybe I shd take up Yoga... at the same time train up my figure... Think i'm getting fatter n fatter... now wear bare-back, tube not so nice le... can kill 2 birds with 1 stone... HAI... Must really Jia You le...

Do I only have time to write twice a month?

2005-06-29T17:56:00.000+08:00

hi guys, sorry for not writing enough these days... Think some ppl may have forgotten about this blog of mine le... I'm too lazy... plus during the day keep facing the comp reach home tired already... admire those who really make an effort to update their blog almost on a daily basis... hehe...

haiz... life has been rather busy and time really seems to travel so fast... for me, Life is still the same... weekdays go work, weekends acc my bf... really really miss school days... how i wish i'm still a full-time student... haha... we all know we can't turn back time...

yesterday has been a terrible day as i've discovered some things tat makes me really sad... To think tat my best frenz cheated me... i was so heart-broken and disappointed... dun wish to mention abt it here... dun wan 2 think abt it... looks like it's going to be another sleepless night... They are making me so confused... I duno who to believe in... If only i duno abt this whole thing... Then i won't be so fan now le... Been forced to think abt something tat i dun wish to... When will it stop bugging me?? How to not think so much? Y can ppl's character change so much within such a short time... We used to be so close... n now some ppl dun even bothers to care abt u... Is it really like wat others say abt friendship? Every thing which u do, u will have a motive behind it... as in when u have something tat is of help to them, your frenz will come stick to u... and when u have nothing, they treat u like a piece of shit... Lucky not everyone like tat ba so realistic... I still have true frenz ba, i believe?

Love is something really hard to define... How do u noe u love a person? Do u really love him or her? It is love that binds 2 ppl together, but it is also the reason for breakups... sometimes u may still leave the person u love... I've seen many couples breakup even after so many years of relationship... So anything could happen... anyway, cherish wat u have, and when it's time to let go of tat someone... just let it go... I've seems to forget how 2 feel sad, how to cry le... becoz it's been too painful tat my feelings are numb... Really glad there's someone by my side that cares abt me... no matter wat weak points he has... At least he's there to listen, to accompany...

hm... June has been a nice mth 4 me... been 2 malaysia for 2 holi trips... quite fun... if only go with frenz would be better rather than being a babysitter for 3 days... haha... need to take care of my bro while my parents were in casino gambling... Wan to save up for Taiwan or Japan trip... but think got to wait very long after i save for my educaton... haha... hm.. how many years will tat take?

After watching the Superstar contest on channel U, i kind of regretted not joining... as i may have the chance to realise my dreams of being a singer... since the contestants wasn't as great as i expected.... so sad.. Y i din go n join in the end... all becoz i was sick n got no phtotos to submit... shouldn't have done at the last min to go print photos... hai... it's all too late... maybe can join the next season if there's any... haha...

Yawnzzz... Better go sleep now... if not tmr become panda bear... still gotta go work de... sianz... but no choice la... life still goes on...

First posting in June...

2005-06-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

It's the 1st posting of a new month... long time ever since i have wrote one... many things seems to have happen this few weeks... Life is so busy... I've just started buying insurance policies... meeting up with my bro's guy fren as well as my cousin... actually feel quite bad tat din buy from him but buy from my cousin instead... hai... Life has pretty much been the same... just tat has been posted to work in another dept at united sq... over there everything seems so different... the ppl.. the work... Stress!!! a lot of interaction with all sorts of ppl... hai... must think on the bright side... can gain more experience ba... hope so... hope i'll go back to last time tat work environment asap... : p
hm... yesterday went Johor 1 day trip with my family n relatives... it was quite fun... we went to a few places in malaysia... like Kota Tinggi n Desaru, etc... hee... took quite a lot of pics...

Me at my dinner place, a restaurant beside a Kelong, nice n fresh seafood...

Very tiring trip... reach home at ard 10pm... then fell asleep quite early as i woke up very early at 5am in the morning on sunday... then this morning felt very uncomfortable... oso have some women's illnesses so took mc din go work today... hai... took abt 2 hours to see the doctor... my whole morning gone... then whole afternoon sleeping at home... 6plus in the evening then wake up... hm... duno tmr go back how leh... sure got a lot of stuff 2 study... hai...

What future is in store for me?

2005-05-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

yeah!! it's friday again... long weekend somemore... hehe... finally can enjoy liao.. today had a meeting with my so-called future supervisors... me n another of my collegues, one of us might be transferred to another dept... then i dun really like it coz i heard it's kinda stress over there... hai... actually my other collegue was chosen but now my supervisor say maybe both going over... sian... yet to be confirmed... duno wats going 2 happen...
hm.. time flies... so fast 20 years of life le... (still got abt half a year)... so fast graduate from nyp le... now working le... duno wats my future is going 2 be like... tot of studying acca then attain cpa... will it really come true... i will put in my best in order to get wat i wan.. may my wishes come true... but i noe it's not going 2 be easy to study n work at the same time... hope i can cope well... hm... before furthering my studies... i need 2 earn n save $$ first... so must jia you! i tell myself.. hee.. hm... then wat abt relationship neh... will i really marry my dear dear? but seriously speaking... right now i cant confirm whether i'm ready 2 spend my whole life with him...
last fri was fun... was angelia's birthday... we went swensens at orchard 4 dinner n took a lot of pics... not like today... so boring... just went home straight after work...

The first time 4 of us meeting up together since exams...

My weekend...

2005-05-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

Urgh!!! Me so angry... Last night write blog halfway my comp jam... waste my time... so have to start all over again...

Last sat can finally go out with frenz le... but it kinda sucks... the only thing nice is can try out bowling... very funny rite? so old liao then first time play... I scored 48 in my 2nd game... haha so lousy... really must ask jamie to train me up...

Hm... I had a hard time preparing mentally to meet up with her again to go out with her... man... surprising hor... I went bowling with ting, yan, seng, hoesoon, junhe, ry and someone... someone who i dont really wish to see... it hurts to see the both of them together even is it holding hands or behaving intimately... just like the drama on channel 8... when lin xiang ping in the show hid in the toilet to cry when she saw Yixin with ah sheng... I'm afraid i might be like her... hai...

in the end i managed to only play 2 hours coz my deardear was waiting at my home for me... he call me say he sick ask me go home earlier... I left earlier than i intended to... but all the dili-dali, i reach home already 7.30 so he angry with me...
all because of them lor... u guys shd noe who the 2 of them i m referring to... walk so slow see vcd la... i in a rush they still purposely do tat... so i ask the rest of my frenz to go with me to the mrt station first n meet them later... it was such a short outing...

ME n Ting

my bestest frenz

when i reach home, my deardear had high fever so i went to buy medicine for him... he so naughty sick le still dun wan 2 eat medicine, ask him not to eat this not to eat tat coz he sick he dun listen... just like a child... hehe...

the night before worse... the moment he came my house he angry... no matter wat i do he oso dui wo fa pi qi... so i became ting zhang for the night... i cried the whole night in my living room alone... until i fell asleep while he was in my room enjoying aircon... he din even care n look for me when i was missing... i so ke lian... when i wake up go back my room he sleep le... see his sleeping look i oso not angry le... then in the middle of the night he hug me n everything's back to normal... hehe...

hm... life really kinda boring... now tat i started working everything seems to be so routine... everyday wake up liao go work.. reach home eat dinner watch tv then sleep.. so sometimes i really hope to relax n enjoy myself... esp during the weekends when i dun have to work... so i really hope i have the freedom to do wat i like go out with frenz all tat... but i got to pei kenneth lehz... really duno how 2 strike a balance sia... hai...

Been at work for a few weeks le.. quite used to the environment there... the bad news is... i will be transfering to another dept soon... duno when though... make me no mood for the rest of the day n oso today... hai... a bit feel like quitting... but i think i got to prepare myself for a more stressful workplace ba... anyway... here r my collegues...

this is Fiona..

Su Fang...

and Siew Yen!

last but not least... i went out 4 dinner with my clique back in poly... it was nice to meet up with them ever since we end sch... everyone has found a job n r doing fine n i'm glad...

hm.. jamie n siewhong so good can pursue their studies further... dun have to worry abt money... not like me have 2 earn my own school fees... i really hope study acca and finally obtain a CPA... tats my dream now ba... so i will jia you de.. u guys too...

working...

2005-04-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

hey guys... it's been long since i last touch blogger... haha...getting more and more lazy 2 go online n sit in front of the computer...

hm... it's been more than 1 week of working at Iras... everything's getting along fine... now still in the learning stage still got a lot of things got to know... not sure of wat r my duties n responsibility yet... my collegues has been nice to me... nobody bully me... keke...

Ta Dang!!! This is my working table... nice rite? hee... but have yet 2 decorate it la... so a bit plain...

another of my pic at office...

hm... i kinda miss my school days... how i wish i'm still a student... now tat i started becoming a working adult i feel a bit no life... every morning wake up early then after work go home like nth 2 do only wait 2 go to sleep... hai... ppl tell me it's like dat de... sianz... is it going 2 be like tat 4 the rest of my life? guess it's really like dat 4 everyone de ba...

hai... y my dear dear haven call me yet? it's 12am le... tonight he seems 2 have all the fun then forget abt me le... sob sob... but i pardon him coz it's his last night at tekong... as he is posting out le... actually quite surprised when he tell me his camp there got pub, ktv all tat... so good sia...

our latest pic... (haiyo, my bf dun like 2 take photo de... so sad... unlike me...)

sorry this posting so short... i a bit tired le... tmr got 2 wake up go work again...

missing for so long...

2005-04-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

hello... hi guys... been gone 4 so long because of my exams and my lazyness... haha... suddenly like duno how 2 start writing... quite long din really sit down n use my comp... now very lazy.. like 2 watch vcd or read books at nite...

today, i went out with 2 of my frenz who i noe from tep... boon hwee and youjing... hm... was a bit paiseh when i was 1 hour late... i went to IRAS to do some stuff like signing the letter of appointment, etc... n tat took me almost 2 hours... haiz... testing my patience sia... hm... going 2 start working full-time soon le... counting down... 5 days... must really enjoy myself b4 tat...

tat's me and youjing... he very cute hor.. hehe...

tat's the wood block, boon hwee... hehe...

long time din get 2 go out with the both of them le... almost 1 year le ba... often get 2 see them ard in sch... but now tat we graduate, i think it's going 2 be hard 2 meet up le.... hope i still get 2 see them if we got the fate or yuan (boon hwee say de)... haha... we go n watch 'the eye10'... hm... the movie not say very nice la... more of a comedy... but to me a bit scary lor... the plot n the ending sucks... but... it was a nice outing with them... relaxing... we oso go play pool n eat dinner at nooch... the ramen i eat quite nice...

these 3 weeks really got a lot of things happening... i oso duno wat 2 put here... things like me very busy studying for my exams till very late nights, my left hand got scald by hot water... so ugly think going 2 leave a scar, my pfp paper cant finish, my bf 1st time book out from tekong, i got my iras job, going out with my frenz almost everyday after my exams... blar blar blar...

hm... time really flies... many things happen in our life everyday... it seems to be a never ending story till the day we die... my poly life so dramatic... 3 years... so many relationships... got qixiang la, weijian la, hongseng la, and of coz got my deardear la... n not forgetting sunny... where is he now? i've totally lost contact with him... perhaps he doesn't wan 2 have anything 2 do with me le ba... y like dat? is it really true tat u will lose a fren if u n tat guy's realtionship doesn't works out? many ppl say tat n i find it really true... look at me n sunny n qx... hai... how i wish we can still be good frenz... so... cherish watever u have ard u... live life to the fullest!!!

hm... yesterday went swimming with angelia n candy... i oso brought along my younger bro... hee... it was fun... but i realise how bad my stamina was... couldn't swim as well as the last time go swim with seng they all... blame myself 4 not exercising lor... getting fatter n pant easily... haiz... after swimming we oso went candy's house 4 a while n to hougang mall 2 buy my skirt...

monday i went watch movie with leehui, jamie n siewhong... they all hor all late... hm... we watch house of fury directed by stephen fung... the movie i tot was not too bad being a hongkong film... got very handsome actors... haha... nice actions n storyline...

me and my Didi, Jianrong outside the swimming pool b4 going in...

the 3 of us after bathing...

in candy's room...

me, jamie and leehui at marina square's toilet...

bf at tekong

2005-03-13T13:42:00.000+08:00

on friday night after night class i went to my dear's place 2 stay overnight... accompany him b4 he go ns... haiz... he got some family problems though... his younger bro somewhat like ran away from home... dun wan 2 return home... then... we spend the time packing his bag 2 go tekong camp and he hand over me his hp n ipod.. but anyway we had a nice night hugging 2 sleep... hm... have 2 wait 4 another 2 weeks before i see him again... sob sob... i'm missing him already...

then yesterday i went out with angelia and maria to play pool, take neoprint, eat dinner and also go esplanade... it was a fun outing...

here are the photos....

here is maria with the nice pose... her pool skills are not too bad wor!

the 3 of us trying out my deardear's hp camera at ps toilet... haha... got 1 stupid aunty stare at us when we took the photos... so idiotic hor...

tat's me at kfc eating my dinner....

my favourite pic...

maria and angelia staring into space...
we took these on the way to esplanade... at the underpass where there are many artisitc work... all so nice...

Me and angelia...

the durian head...

nice night scenery... at the opposite side of the river...

the bridge...

where are we??

it's so nice to sit by the river... it feels so great... so relax... hai... many memories came to my mind though... so deep memories...

there was a point where we were all silent... listening to the waves and thinking of many things... we also sang some songs... i record with the hp... so nice... hehe...

is that my car?? if only it is then good...

so tired... can lie on ppl's shoulder... haha...

the bear so big and cute... how i wish it's mine...

piano??

so nice.. all the lighted figurines...

hm... i enjoyed myself very much last night... hope we can go out like yesterday again... next tuesday i got another ktv session at suntec kbox... hope it will be fun... hehe... but b4 tat still got 2 go job interview at iras... hope everything will turn out fine... hai... my dear dear at tekong... i will miss him a lot de... he not by my side... hm... still got my final exams b4 my graduate... next next week exam week le... now can relax abit b4 i study real hard during my study week... hm... think maybe wouldn't write anymore blog until after exams ba... see ya...

school pics...

2005-03-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

Photo Gallery!!!

haha... recently like take a lot of pics... coz going 2 graduate soon... everyone wan 2 keep memories of our frenz...

busy and pia 4 so long... finally cleared my special project module... pics were taken at the end of the presentation...

Our whole group with Mervin, Xueyen, Me, Huiling and Jensen...

another one with us and Mr patrick chin inside...

these are pics taken after accounting seminar on 19 Feb... the leehui and siewhong brought camera to take pics...

Siew hong, Leehui and me!

Siew hong and me...

now comes leehui and me le...

Next, the following sat, 26 Feb, we had another boring seminar... the entrepreneurship seminar lor... but this time round took with my other clique...

At the bridge...

At the auditorium

Candy, Maria, Angelia and me!! hehe... Candy pose like a model...

The 3 of us...

By the pond...

My favourite pic...

WAh... so big group...

hm... the following pic i forget when take le... ah... ya hor... these are taken the day after me, angelia and candy stayed up the whole night just 2 finish up our accounting challenge report tat time... so got dark rings... haha...

GIRLZ POWERZ!!! (hehe..Maria so extra de... : p)

last but not least, the pic me n angelia took tonight... after we stay in sch till abt 8pm 2 do assignment n project...

To My dear Angelia: Thanks 4 being such a nice and helpful girl... really glad to noe u... rem last time we always take the same bus then duno each other but got smile to each other... until we became classmates then get 2 noe u more... u have been a caring, straight-forward, sometimes blur blur and will never fail 2 make ppl laugh... hehe... I know u have been very sad recently... dun everything keep to urself... must be strong ok... must jia you... Friends Forever! No matter where we may go must keep in contact k... stay pretty and happy...

Alvin

2005-02-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday, saturday was a simple n nice day... although morning i had to wake up early to attend a boring entrepreneurship seminar n somemore got no refreshments... i spend a pleasant afternoon with my best fren kaiting n a guy called Alvin tat has become someone i considered my good fren...
hehe... so funny... i met Alvin during my last holiday... i rem tat time i went suntec kbox with kaiting n her niece... together we go sing ktv... then i saw this guy who i find very cute... haha.. although i argue with him about the drinks we had which was so little not worth the price... but then i tell kt they all tat i wan 2 get 2 see him more... then all of us eat a lot of the tidbits so tat he keep coming in to refill tidbits... haha... until they all complain eat too much le...
finally... i buck up the courage 2 get his hp number... so i wrote on a piece of paper my name n my hp no... when he came in i pass it 2 him... he took the empty bowls out n is suppose 2 bring in refilled tidbit bowls.. so... he came back in... but he din say anything or pass any paper back to me... at first was quite disappointed as i tot he din wan 2 be frenz with me... but guess wat...
ting found a piece of paper hidden inside the bowl of tidbits... she very bad dun wan me 2 have it... i snatch it from her n tore the paper... heng ah... the number on the paper can still be seen... so from then on... through this contact we became frenz... but hor... kaiting seems to be in much much better terms with Alvin until i jealous... haha... kidding... she must thank me to find such a nice fren...
from then onwards... i often went back 2 the outlet he's working at to sing ktv... it was great... i could get him 2 book rooms 4 me... n he could sometimes join me after work.. i remembered tat time kaiting, shenyan, seng, ruiyi, erik, we all went there 2 celebrate my birthday... initially, i tot there was no birthday cake 4 me... coz they say they no $$... but then... to my surprised... Alvin suddenly came in with a birthday cake... i was so touched... it was an effort from the all of them... but if not 4 someone... as i broke up with him tat day.. i would be much much more happier... hm.. we end up going dinner n play pool after the K session...
hm... yesterday i was thinking of him... esp when he n his gf came to school 2 find me as i need 2 pass them their valentine's day gift.. i was really sad tat day n yesterday... but with the chat at the cafe with Alvin n Ting, i felt so relaxed n enjoying 2 chat about all tats happening to us.. make me feel much better.. wat a nice saturday night... we also took a few photos...

Me and Alvin!!!

another one of us...

not forgeting kaiting...

Thank you to Alvin and Kaiting... Friends Forever!

photos...

2005-02-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

time pass so quickly... going to graduate from poly already... 3 years liao... i could still remember clearly my first year when i came into nyp... and now a bit sad sad one... leaving school soon... going to step into the workforce very soon... all the best to my good frenz... my classmates... my tep frenz... all the memories all came to my mind... TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS :thank you for being part of my life... keep in touch... take care...

~Me and Jamie~

dear jamie, u have been a very nice and cute gal... everything all so capable... face everyone with a smile, i like your character, straight-forward, easy-going... my wishes for u: May you have a great life ahead, faster go find a guy tat can love u adore u, may u suceed in everything u do and lastly, may all your dreams come true, cheers...

~Me and clique~ Got Jamie, Maria, Me and Angelia...

Another pic of us, with mabel, our classmate...

new year and valentine's day

2005-02-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

hey, recently seems to be too busy to write blog sia... now then got the time to sit down and write one long one... try to... just as long as i dun start feeling tired... hai... so fast the new year season about to end liao... enjoy finish le... sian to go back school but used to it back le... it has been fun this new year... hm... not tat fun la... not as much as in the past... but still better than the normal days... hehe... this year collect quite a lot of ang bao $$ at least more than last year... really got to save up the money but soon it will be spend off ba...
let me talk about some nice things that happen the past few days... as usual a tradition... i would always gamble on 2nd day of new year at my aunt's house... my 2 elder cousin ah peng n ah pang would usually be the banker n win our $$ de... they very wang...
hm... i going to graduate from nyp liao... my good friends from poly: jamie, grace, leehui and siewhong first time come my house sia... and also this new year i surprised that my cousin will talk to me leh... he like first time tok 2 me after so many years... i think is becoz i complain to my kor he act dao... haha...
hai you, must mention this... i have been to this aunty of mine(my mum's pri sch fren) every year to bai nian... but this year... guess wat... his younger son named wei sen, totally look different... wah lao... damn gorgeous man... become so good looking tat i couldn't recognise at first look... wow... within one year can change so much... slim down a lot and improve a lot on his dress sense and appearance... too bad we always din tok one and also he's 2 years younger than me... if not i will try tackle him... haha... just joking around... but i believe he sure got many gals like one la... i where got chance...
On sat, my best frenz: kaiting, shenyan and hongseng came to my house to bai nian(missing one person=ry)... it was fun... ah seng play blackjack with my relatives, i was walking here and there to entertain all of them while ting n yan was busy playing with ah seng's digital camera... we took quite a lot of pics...

Friends forever, gals!

Family photo... haha...

3 beautiful ladies :)

~Me and Ting~

~Me and Yan~

~Me and Seng~

My best frenz and me... me so extra... wear specs... ha...

Nice new year i had... din meet my bf 4 almost a month before cny...
as for valentine's day, kind of disappointed ba... but still ok la... anyway it's over liao...
my bf keep on cant make it to meet me last thur and last sat when he say he will... make me wait for his call the whole day... then in the end still scold me on sat night and also on sunday... when we were suppose to celebrate valentine's day in advance... haiz... we quarrel over things tat happen in the past.. he all bring out and say... shout to me through the phone say dun wan me... make me so sad.. sob sob.. so i rush down to his house by cab coz he insist i go over to his house stay overnight... everything was alright until... after we went 2 watch the movie 'i do i do', his frenz wan 2 come over his house play mahjong then he let them come... i around leh... they so noisy make me cant sleep well the whole night... also had a nightmare that my bf leave me for another gal tat particular night... make me wake up crying 4 so long... somemore next day still have 2 wake up early to travel from his house, jurong to sch... shouldn't have ask me to come if tat's the case... hai... tats not enough... tat monday morning he promise tat day, valentine's day will pei wo go buy my present... in the end when i wake him up he say he very tired wan 2 sleep... there goes my vday... so i decide to accompany angelia and maria to bugis... hm... angelia cry tat night... sad over tat bad guy, FaXXXX lor... haiyo... dun be like me until now oso not really get over with my past relationship... dun keep 'jiu chan bu qing' with him le... must learn to put things down and love yourself ok... duno wat to say liao... my dear fren, angelia... jia you!

It's been nice knowing u gal, all the best!

I do have a compensation from my bf, kenneth on tuesday... tats yesterday... we went causeway point to watch the movie that he wanted to catch: 'Flight of the Phoenix' (it's a nice show, worth watching). My dear also bought a baby winnie the pooh for me as vday gift.. so cute.. like a real baby... hee... i will be hugging it every night to sleep... hm... but yesterday's outing was short... i meet him near to 3pm and reach home at 6pm... so sian... but he tired so i let him go home sleep lor...

yawnz... need to go sleep le... tmr still got 2 wake up early... i shall stop here ba...

accounting challenge

2005-02-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!! yippee.... We have won the accounting challenge! Girlz Powerz! hehe... have been so tired n so busy this whole week... with the entre ica2 n mgt acc etest... the past few days we have all been struggling... to finish up a good report n polish up our presentation for this accounting challenge... Angelia and Candy even stay overnight at my place to pia the report... we din get 2 sleep much on wed night...go to bed at 6am... tat was a terrible night.. but all our efforts have paid off! so happy... at least all the hard work brings good results... hee... Good job done by my group members... a round of appause 4 all of u... thank u... hehe... Thanks for all those who have came school 2 support me 4 my accounting comp today as well as those who believe in our group... &..... it has proven those who thought tat we will never win this comp wrong... totally wrong... haha.... shame on them... i always think tat nothing is impossible if u believe in yourself... have the confident and everything will come ur way... We shd always have dreams... hai... but it doesn't really apply 2 me though... it has always been a dream of mine to become a singer... not because i wan 2 get really famous n rich but becoz of the passion i have 4 singing the feeling of winning the stage n the audience... i do love 2 perform... hehe... but dreams r dreams... they r not realistic... hm... when will this day come tat someone will discover my talents 4 singing... although i not say really very gd in singing or shall i say not as good as in the past, but at least i dare 2 sing out loud anywhere i m, just as long as there r those who appreciate my songs... i'll continue 2 jia you de... hm... chinese new year coming oso... happy happy... jia you 2 my dear dear too... hao hao work... going into ns soon... hope it's going 2 be fine 4 him... i'm missing him right now... more than 3 weeks din see him le... n i'm going 2 miss soon when he goes in camp...

Love...

2005-01-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

To me, Love is...
feeling the pain & hurt if u are without him,
hoping to see tat person every moment,
dressing up nicely for tat guy u like,
always giving in to tat someone,
tat person is always on your mind,
willing to change your bad habits for tat someone,
accepting all his weaknesses,
not asking him to change himself for ur sake,
forgiving all the faults he have done,
caring and be involved in the affairs of his loved ones,
giving encouragement and supprot when he needs it,
willing to sacrifice everything for him,
appreciating all tat he has done for u,
wanting him to be happy at all times,
buying small gifts for him to make his day better,
adore him,
enjoying everytime u are with him,
making sure he is well taken care of,
dun wan to see him sad,
being truthful to each other,
have trust between each other,
remembering every special day,
being able to speak freely to tat person,
care about wat tat person thinks of u,
dun have to act in front of him,
kiss, hug & cuddle often to show passion,
let tat someone know u care about him,
let him know u r secure and comfortable with him around,
love cooking for tat someone,
not letting him cry because of u,
make him feel proud of you,
planning your future with him,
always ask for his opinion in all matters,
dicuss with him before making decisions,
cherish every moment with tat person,
not letting him worry about u,
understand all his feelings n situation,
not giving him any stress & sufferings,
not bothering wat others say about him,
& lastly... everything is not important just as long as the one you love has a good life...
How about u?
Wat do u think is love?

My brother...

2005-01-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

hm... today has been a normal day... just tat now my elder brother is at Changi Hospital... hai... today he went out with his gf then suddenly call us tell us tat he's admitted to hospital... duno wats wrong with him... the doctors are still investigating... it's either Acute appendicitis or food poisoning... hope they faster find out the real reasons for his pain... so tat at least we can be relieved tat he's suffering from nothing serious... y like dat... chinese new year coming le leh... then have so many things happening... so many ppl ard me fell sick... i'm so worried for them... could god faster take all the illnesses away from them... hope my bro, my relative, my frenz all faster recover... I pray to god for their good health... May everyone stay happy...

Life is short...

2004-12-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

Life is really short... Birth, Ageing, Illness, Death... Time pass really fast... how i wish we could turn back time... I remember when I was still young, I had my dear grandma looking after me till i was 12... then I had a lot of fun, stress and tears spending with my friends and teachers during my school days... and now i am going to graduate from school in a few months... the future is unpredictable... I do not noe wat is in store for me... hope I could find a stable job and live my life happily... as for the memories.. I will always keep them in my heart... I thank all those people that came into my life, whether is it for a short time or for years, for good or for bad, they have made my life special... so... Cherish everything around u.. u will not noe when u r going to lose them... and be grateful to everyone... appreciate all the thoughts others have for u... enjoy life to the fullest... and I will go back to the real me as soon as possible...