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Thursday, June 22, 2006
Being with dear is so different... not like my past few bfs... although no romantic stuff, no honeymoon period, no seeing him every moment... I feel contented le... Feels like we have been together for very long le... The feeling is so natural... I'm happy just like tat everyday just a chat on the phone or msn with him... All the sweet sweet messages from him... Hee... Last sat we went Cineleisure to catch 'Silent Hill'... quite a not bad movie... but i dun like the ending... Hm... The first time we went out ever since we are together... shy shy... Hee... He never ask the qns... But just include a 'dear' in one of the msg he send me... Haha... Just started like dat... Reminds me of 3 years back when he went after me when i'm with kenneth... tat time he very daring de... just hold my hand like dat... haha... oso went to fetch me off work when i having attachment at Changi Airport... all the things he has done really make me feel so touched... feel quite bad when i choose to be with kenneth tat time... but... fate brought us back... and we were together again... Hee... Hm... Today is Thursday le... Today n tmr will have to work overtime as i dun feel like coming back on sat to work... then can spend more time with Mr Sunny... Only get to see him during weekends... hoping can meet him more often when he is less busy n when he ord from mid next month onwards... missing him now... Hee... then this weekend oso meeting ting, yan they all go ktv... Yeah... My singing 'ying' oso come liao... Hm... Guess both of us will be busy when we start our studies soon... Duno wat the future will be for the both of us... Just leave it to fate ba... written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 1:03 PM (0) comments Friday, June 16, 2006 It's Friday!!
Yesterday he called me... Glad we could talk like frenz now... But he so bad de... Ask me this: 'Yesterday (wed) ladies night u never go chiong meh?'... Crazy lor... I long time never go clubbing le... 2006 half a year gone le i never go once... tat time because of him i oso never go.. coz i noe he dun like me to go... although he never say he dun allow la... haiz... After breakup with him i wan to go... but always can't find ka kee... hai... really long time never go le.. since last year 23 dec... Wow... So lo0ng... Hm... he was saying tat he paiseh never reply my msg... so called me during his lunch break time... He oso ask me:'U got new one now??' I reply say:'Dun have. Not yet'... Jokingly say:'Wan to forget u ma.. wat to do'... Hai... I guess he still meant something to me... It's really so hard to forget someone... Duno is it really like wat my fren say, 'Aiya... he must be lonely in camp during bmt tats y find u la...' Or is it like wat my another fren say, 'he maybe still miss u ba... Somehow i find tat u 2 still got the chance...' Another fren was saying: 'Let him cross over his own barrier of finding u being not the future he wan la'... Haiz... the more i listen to others, the more fan i get... but I just wan 2 share with others.. if not i very 'kan bu kai'... Although sometimes I will still cry and think of the past... I've made up my mind le... To get on with my life... Be with another guy tat will create a great future together with me... Since he can be so determined and give up on me so easily... Why can't I do the same rite? No point hanging on to a broken relationship... Hope my bf-to-be can protect me n give me the love i want... He's so sweet... Say those things tat made me so touched... Hey, if u see this, Thanks for still being here for me after so long... written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 12:47 PM (0) comments Tuesday, June 13, 2006 Lost in the middle of nowhere...
Why is love so tiring?... Been trying to forget yet unable to do so... Been trying to love someone else... I can't deny tat i really like him... the sweet feelings from the past all came back... but the moment i receive an unexpected msg from another him makes me think twice... makes me confused once again... He was saying tat he in camp not quite used to the life there... say i can call or msg him when i'm free... Reminds me of tat day, 9 june, i went to send him off to ns at Pasir Ris bus interchange... He din see me... and I was lucky tat i caught the sight of him boarding the bus with his family... Tat kind of pain... tat i shd have been on the bus with them... I feel like crying at tat moment... Although my fren was saying tat i'm silly... i have no business to be there... but yet my heart tells me to do so... no matter as a fren or as someone tat is still pining hopes on him... anyway i felt ease n happy to see him off... Yesterday was very surprised tat he would actually msg me... he say he din bring his hp to camp(tat explains y he din pick up my call last fri)... But he have actually think of me n give me a msg... tat kind of feeling is so... so... happy... yet sad... Think he only treat me as someone he can find when he is feeling lonely? Isit? I have promised him i'll always be there for him... but since he already decide to leave me... I shd really move on... n not let the past bother me... But it wouldn't he be unfair to him if i were to be with him n i still can't forget ken... Hai... My feelings for him has been true... n the kind of happiness is what i used to have...but where's the sense of security? I have no idea who i m to him... R we still frenz or r we couple already? Or maybe is i thinking too much? Really like the way he let me lie on his shoulder, hug me and touch my hair... say he miss me... msg me ask me how i have been... When am I going to get out of all these troubles??? Really need to think through carefully before I hurt anyone or myself... Maybe workplace is the only place i can throw away these thoughts for the moment... The feeling is painful when I need to act like i very happy in front of him... Dun wish to let him know it hurts... written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 1:19 PM (0) comments
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