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Monday, August 22, 2005 Depression...
Yesterday did something that I regretted a lot... scolding my mum bad words... I know this sounds really bad... really feel guilty of wat i've done... Had apologised to my mum... got scolded by both my elder bro and my bf... sobsob... Wat right does HE has to scold me? HE has never really taken care or be concerned about me... HE has never done his duty as an elder bro... HE is only doing his duty as a son... My bf is saying tat he's my bro afterall... but he's not really fit to be one... He just doesn't know his sis... He scold me bad words then can hor... i have always wanted brotherly love from him... but wat do i get... to think tat i still source around for his wedding gift... wat for... i know wat he did was right... he scolded me was right... but before doing tat can he reflect on himself first... I wan a break from all my troubles!!! Work, bf, friends... I wanna have time for myself!!! written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 7:30 PM (0) comments Sunday, August 07, 2005 3 stories...
but think again, if I don't, I wouldn't be so silly... I want to, but I can't... I feel miserable... Am I thinking too much? Maybe some things are not meant to be said... Did he like me at all? Why is he so nice to me? I like being with him... Maybe I'm not anyone to him, Who am I to him? haha... Maybe I dun really like him? Does he really don't need someone to be there for him? I hate to fall in love with him... Why do i miss him so much? Why do my feelings change? Why did I keep hoping to see him, to hear from him? Stop being foolish, so wat if u like him, wanna be with him? I really hope to hear from him his true feelings for me... but maybe I'll slowly forget about him as time goes by, when i stop thinking of him, stop contacting him, stop seeing him... Tears has never been so hard to drop, crying was my history, I feel numb... Why did he choose to do this? Did he ever love me before? Didn't he know what I've done for him? Why is he not the guy i used to know anymore? Do i deserve such treatment from him? Is the one he's with right now the right one for him? I love him very much so I dun wanna leave him?? haha... I will learn to give up on u is because i love u too much?? haha... I think I shd stop thinking of him... But how has he been recently? I've not heard from him for long... I sincerely hope he cherish what he has by his side now... & I will forget the hurt he has caused for me... Do I really love him that much? Is love really enough to keep a relationship going? Did he really need me? Does he really need a girlfriend? Isn't love suppose to be simple? Isn't love suppose to be tat you wanted that person to be happy? Since when has love become like this? So many things has happened, y can't he just face the reality? What am i still holding on to? I do love him, don't I? If not I wouldn't do that... I'm not in the position to love anyone... I'm losing the original me... Sometimes I just wanna be alone... I will try my best de... written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 10:31 PM (0) comments Tuesday, August 02, 2005 I'm feeling sick...
something is wrong with me... I have been feeling unwell recently... because of the stress I get from my work, I seems to get some kind of work phobia... hai... since the last week has been losing my concentration, vomiting out the food tat i've eaten, feeling very restless leh... yesterday cried in front of my supervisor... went home halfway to rest then today on mc... duno y oso... even tot of changing job sia... but ain't working life suppose to be stressful... no matter where i go still will be the same... so fast have been working for close to 4 mths le... met a lot of nice colleagues... especially my closest fren, Ximin... We have been happily working together for more than 2 mths in the irin project for our company... now tat she's transfered back to production, i some sort of lose my 'yi kao'... Very sad when she shifted back yesterday... I even cried lor... I really must jia you le... a lot of things must depend on myself... have to overcome the fear i have for work... so paiseh... telling u guys abt my 'chou shi'... so silly right? throw face... hm... I have tot about it n decided to pick myself up... try my very best to challenge myself on my job... no matter wat got to face it... cannot be like a child le... grow up le... going to be 20 soon... must buck up... must learn to be strong... cannot see problem then cry... haiyo... ~Love~ Not only work got problem... my l0ve life oso... Y i m so confused whether i love my bf anot after we have been together for close to 2 n a half years?? haiz... have been thinking of whether he has been the right one for me... thinking of it for quite a long period of time... everytime when i told him i wanna break up... he will always convince me not to change my mind to be with him... n i just dun bear to see him so sad n hurt... will always be soft-hearted n ask myself... Do I really dun love him? Do i really have to break up with him? Can the problem be solved? Am i wasting my time to be with someone I not sure i could spend the rest of my life with? Or am I not fit to love anyone? help!! ~Friends~ Friday has been a really nice day... It's my poly graduation!! So happy to go back to school to get my cert... the time we have all been waiting for... at the same time might be the last time I visit NYP... really really really miss my poly sch life... so happening so enjoying 3years... have made lots of good friends... the memories of those days will always be kept in my mind... tat day was busy spending time taking many photos with those tat had made part of my life special... Thank u all my frenz... We must always keep in touch ok... Now tat we r all entering into another stage of our lives being working adults or pursuing further studies or guys tat r going through NS...I wish all of u all the best to your future endearvours... Here's some of the photos taken on tat day (29Jul2005)... (More will be uploaded when i get them from my frenz's camera)...  Me!!  My dear Mummy and Me!!  Jiahui, Me, Kit Yee and Angelia!! written by*-- Dreamylingzzz @ 7:12 PM (0) comments
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